feigned strength

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i feel ill. i have a huge stone in my stomach... in the first grade, we had a counselor come divide us into little groups and speak to each group during the week... kind of like a "getting to know your feelings" side course for first gradrs. one of the main things that actually stuck over the years was our counselor's (Mrs. Madden) description of bad sad feelings.... she told us that angry feelings make us want to shout, but sad feeling are different. it feels as though there is a giant stone in your stomach weighing you down, making you feel bad, like you have to carry arounda lot of weight ("a lot of heavy toys," she'd tell us).

i've got that stone sittin there. it hurts.