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Sometimes, I'm full of a lot of hurt and anger...Sometimes, I remind myself of the sad things that happened in the past.
Other times, I'm full of happiness, joy and life...
What's wrong with me that I have such opposit moods?
So I've decided that I'm not going to live in North Carolina ever again... I just can't be myself there...I'm constantly reminded of the horrible things that happened to me when I lived there and I can't seem to put it past me.
So, Tim and I are looking for an apartment in Abingdon..I'm really hopeful that we'll be able to find something that's mutually convienent for both of our daily schedules. We'll see.
When you live in Southwest Virginia, you sometimes encounter a.... How can I put this.... A Different Type of people. Today, I really encountered that. People here (not all, some) who are in professional positions (again, SOME of them) 1. Aren't really that professional to begin with and 2. Don't really know what the hell they're talking about in the first place...It's both frustrating and sad. Have I lost hope in this area of the country?
I'd like to think not.
Just over a year and Tim and I will be counting down the final stretch of our engagment. It's hard to believe that I've come to that point in my life... It's not that I'm unhappy..I've just got to reflect on everything that's happened so far in my life. I'm constantly worried about the timing, my readiness, my college education, my family and how it all mixes in with my marriage...But I suppose that all in all, It is MY marriage and MY education so why should I worry about what other people think? If people aren't supportive and don't love me for WHO I AM, then their friendship didn't matter in the first place.
I've found those that will stick by me no matter what, those who don't let me down...And those are the people that I can say "I love you" to and really mean it. I don't say it, If I don't mean it.
I've got to go to bed. I forgot that I had a commitment for 9:00am tomorrow morning (regretfully working the voting boothes for elections).
Wish me luck, I need guidence in my life.
Other times, I'm full of happiness, joy and life...
What's wrong with me that I have such opposit moods?
So I've decided that I'm not going to live in North Carolina ever again... I just can't be myself there...I'm constantly reminded of the horrible things that happened to me when I lived there and I can't seem to put it past me.
So, Tim and I are looking for an apartment in Abingdon..I'm really hopeful that we'll be able to find something that's mutually convienent for both of our daily schedules. We'll see.
When you live in Southwest Virginia, you sometimes encounter a.... How can I put this.... A Different Type of people. Today, I really encountered that. People here (not all, some) who are in professional positions (again, SOME of them) 1. Aren't really that professional to begin with and 2. Don't really know what the hell they're talking about in the first place...It's both frustrating and sad. Have I lost hope in this area of the country?
I'd like to think not.
Just over a year and Tim and I will be counting down the final stretch of our engagment. It's hard to believe that I've come to that point in my life... It's not that I'm unhappy..I've just got to reflect on everything that's happened so far in my life. I'm constantly worried about the timing, my readiness, my college education, my family and how it all mixes in with my marriage...But I suppose that all in all, It is MY marriage and MY education so why should I worry about what other people think? If people aren't supportive and don't love me for WHO I AM, then their friendship didn't matter in the first place.
I've found those that will stick by me no matter what, those who don't let me down...And those are the people that I can say "I love you" to and really mean it. I don't say it, If I don't mean it.
I've got to go to bed. I forgot that I had a commitment for 9:00am tomorrow morning (regretfully working the voting boothes for elections).
Wish me luck, I need guidence in my life.