It was right in front of my face and I didn't even notice....
Wow.
I'm learning a lot about myself lately, a lot.
For example....
Today, I decided to do a little bit of spring cleaning because I was definitly sick of the hanious mess that had been growing since Christmas time. Afer I finished cleaning up the place I enjoy calling home, I decided to clean out my purse and subsequently just threw all of the many papers and "trash" that was in it. Well....
I had to take pictures tonight for the Board of Trustees meeting, well the pictures are for the paper but it doesn't matter. Anyway... So,I'd obviously never used the camera before and was slightly nervous about it so I asked Chris to meet me before hand and show me how to use the stupid camera. Well.... Anywho, we ended up meeting at Grill 155 (ugh) for dinner. I went to go and pay and realized that I didn't have my card so I thought, well I'll just pay for it with my credit card. Turns out, they don't take it so I went back to look for the stupid card at home. Well.... I couldn't find it ANYWHERE... Turns out... I'd thrown it away with the rest of my papers when I took my trash out, how smart was that? Everythings taken care of but wow... I can be really ditzy sometimes..
*clears throat*
Example two:
I realized that too much of a good thing can be a REALLY GOOD THING!!!!!! ha-ha! But, I've also realized that.... people notice a difference in personality and behavior especially around here. That doesn't make any sense but it does to me and no one reads this anyway, so it doesn't really matter to me anyway. I write in this journal to get things out of my thought with the confidence that with the exception of EmilySarah, nobody reads this anyway.. I'm safe. Well, so I've been grilled by people lately about something that I frankly, don't have any control over.
Don't ask me what's going on because I really don't know. Which might very well lead me into example number three:
This was right in front of me this entire time but it took me until now to figure out that... yeah, I kinda like him. Okay, you caught me. I like him. Wow, I'm a dork. But that's okay. I'm content with everything now and am not going to make any "moves" because... I can't bring myself to do it. I should be fairly obvious that I like him, but if it's not... uhh....? I figure, if he shares similar feelings than we'll both find out eventually. I just hope that people aren't asking him like they're asking me, well I'm sure they are asking him if they're asking me. I just say I don't know. LOL, because... umm.... I don't. But my hope is, because I know how it feels (obviously) that he isn't uncomfortable and the other people asking turns him off, that would suck... Big time. Major big time. Eh, things will happen as they happen, no sense in worrying for "nothing"...
In other, probably slightly more interesting news:
English this morning was a pointless waste of my life. I'm really considering asking her for all the time that I've wasted in her class, for it back. If only she knew how incredibly excruciatingly painful her class is she might consider making some alterations... Who knows. But.... It was bad. And it was long, and it just sucked.
Turned in my paper for my 415 class earlier today, thankfully. I started on it at 9:00 last night and finished at 10:45 last night. It was 7 pages and probably the only time in my life I've actually been able to completely bs an entire paper in that short time, Go me!!!! Went to class, boring. Most of his classes are the same thing so it's not like I have to really really really pay attention or anything. *wink smiles*
Went to lunch with Matt, wow this is getting long but that's okay. It wasn't too bad. He told me that I didn't think highly of myself enough to where he couldn't psychologically destroy me. Nice one Matt... You got me. Pshhh!
Went to Law, was slightly happy that Tim decided not to skip class. It's not like I talk to him or anything during class, but I didn't want him to not be there.... *Smiles* Dear God, what's the matter with me? I'm crazy... *Smiles*
So after Law, I was supposed to skip Arabic to go shopping with Katie but I ended up skipping Arabic to do my spring cleaning and reflection on my life time.... Felt kind of guilty about not being in Arabic, felt really guilty. Oh well, I'll have to improve on that at some point in my life.
Then it was dinner, meeting, work where I talked to Molly and Kaylea for the entire time, it was sooo fun! I enjoy working with Molly and have become friends with Kaylea who is cool. She's got a lot in common with me, obviously I'm not judging her for being a democrat... haha. I decided to look past that point because she's a cool person. Yay for friends.
Yay for online journals that allow me to put off studying for a test that i don't really need to study for anyway....
Oh how fitting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just as I'm wrapping up this journal entry Semisonic's "Closing Time" comes onto my radio. God is good, all the time!!!!
Until next time.....
I'm learning a lot about myself lately, a lot.
For example....
Today, I decided to do a little bit of spring cleaning because I was definitly sick of the hanious mess that had been growing since Christmas time. Afer I finished cleaning up the place I enjoy calling home, I decided to clean out my purse and subsequently just threw all of the many papers and "trash" that was in it. Well....
I had to take pictures tonight for the Board of Trustees meeting, well the pictures are for the paper but it doesn't matter. Anyway... So,I'd obviously never used the camera before and was slightly nervous about it so I asked Chris to meet me before hand and show me how to use the stupid camera. Well.... Anywho, we ended up meeting at Grill 155 (ugh) for dinner. I went to go and pay and realized that I didn't have my card so I thought, well I'll just pay for it with my credit card. Turns out, they don't take it so I went back to look for the stupid card at home. Well.... I couldn't find it ANYWHERE... Turns out... I'd thrown it away with the rest of my papers when I took my trash out, how smart was that? Everythings taken care of but wow... I can be really ditzy sometimes..
*clears throat*
Example two:
I realized that too much of a good thing can be a REALLY GOOD THING!!!!!! ha-ha! But, I've also realized that.... people notice a difference in personality and behavior especially around here. That doesn't make any sense but it does to me and no one reads this anyway, so it doesn't really matter to me anyway. I write in this journal to get things out of my thought with the confidence that with the exception of EmilySarah, nobody reads this anyway.. I'm safe. Well, so I've been grilled by people lately about something that I frankly, don't have any control over.
Don't ask me what's going on because I really don't know. Which might very well lead me into example number three:
This was right in front of me this entire time but it took me until now to figure out that... yeah, I kinda like him. Okay, you caught me. I like him. Wow, I'm a dork. But that's okay. I'm content with everything now and am not going to make any "moves" because... I can't bring myself to do it. I should be fairly obvious that I like him, but if it's not... uhh....? I figure, if he shares similar feelings than we'll both find out eventually. I just hope that people aren't asking him like they're asking me, well I'm sure they are asking him if they're asking me. I just say I don't know. LOL, because... umm.... I don't. But my hope is, because I know how it feels (obviously) that he isn't uncomfortable and the other people asking turns him off, that would suck... Big time. Major big time. Eh, things will happen as they happen, no sense in worrying for "nothing"...
In other, probably slightly more interesting news:
English this morning was a pointless waste of my life. I'm really considering asking her for all the time that I've wasted in her class, for it back. If only she knew how incredibly excruciatingly painful her class is she might consider making some alterations... Who knows. But.... It was bad. And it was long, and it just sucked.
Turned in my paper for my 415 class earlier today, thankfully. I started on it at 9:00 last night and finished at 10:45 last night. It was 7 pages and probably the only time in my life I've actually been able to completely bs an entire paper in that short time, Go me!!!! Went to class, boring. Most of his classes are the same thing so it's not like I have to really really really pay attention or anything. *wink smiles*
Went to lunch with Matt, wow this is getting long but that's okay. It wasn't too bad. He told me that I didn't think highly of myself enough to where he couldn't psychologically destroy me. Nice one Matt... You got me. Pshhh!
Went to Law, was slightly happy that Tim decided not to skip class. It's not like I talk to him or anything during class, but I didn't want him to not be there.... *Smiles* Dear God, what's the matter with me? I'm crazy... *Smiles*
So after Law, I was supposed to skip Arabic to go shopping with Katie but I ended up skipping Arabic to do my spring cleaning and reflection on my life time.... Felt kind of guilty about not being in Arabic, felt really guilty. Oh well, I'll have to improve on that at some point in my life.
Then it was dinner, meeting, work where I talked to Molly and Kaylea for the entire time, it was sooo fun! I enjoy working with Molly and have become friends with Kaylea who is cool. She's got a lot in common with me, obviously I'm not judging her for being a democrat... haha. I decided to look past that point because she's a cool person. Yay for friends.
Yay for online journals that allow me to put off studying for a test that i don't really need to study for anyway....
Oh how fitting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just as I'm wrapping up this journal entry Semisonic's "Closing Time" comes onto my radio. God is good, all the time!!!!
Until next time.....