needed some comfort
no one reads these anymore but i needed something to make me feel better, even if no one reads it. this weekend was the worst weekend ever. at the time it wasnt bad but now that im back to reality i just cant handle it. yeah i made a big mistake but it wasnt just MY mistake, it takes 2. im sick of people seeing through everything i say, and i am just beginning to wonder when everyone stopped taking me seriously and stopped trusting me. if any one i know can say one definite time when i lied to them then i will retract my statement, im alot of things but i dont lie. all i want is someone to listen to my side and stop just writing me off. why is everyone against me??? my life is so fucked up because of that, because my words dont matter but everyone elses does. the only person on my side is the person who shouldnt be on my side at all. im sick of getting all the blame and reprucussions but no one else does. im like the fucking scapegoat of the world, im surprised cnn hasnt announced hurricane wilma was my fault. i just wanna get away from drama and i try to move on and do the best i can but everything around me doesnt let that happen. am i doomed forever seriously???? all i want is some normalcy and an ear to listen to me and believe in me...no one ever does