oficially the worst day ever and i'm moving to sweden and living in seclusion
today is officially up there in the worst days of my life category for many reasons...first i got like attacked in history but i attacked back which was immature but i dont see how its fair for other people to mean to one person but its not fair for me. i know i acted immaturaly and to anyone who hates me because i said go die in the war in iraq, i meant it theoretically, no like i wish you were dead, but like you say we are stupid for what we believe but whould you want to go do that? but i will say i'm sry, especially to one person in particular who didnt deserve the brunt of my frustrations, you know who you are and if you would i would like to be forgiven some day if you can find it in you, even though i probably dont deserve it....moving on the probably the most hurt i have ever been. i dont want to go and talk about m personal life but i feel like if i do i may vent and feel better, the one person i love most and thought would always be there for me in everyway let me down. i will always give him another chance but i hurt so bad to think of the things he does to me, that no one will understand. i hate having to almost break up and i hate having to be mad at him for hurting me. seriously people not everything is always my fault and this is one instance where it wasnt i swear. and i dont know i feel like i had a reason to be upset and i still am upset. i hurt easily and this was something that hurt me more than almost anything in the word could. i would rather be stabbed in the head than have to feel what i felt to day.if you read this please try to keep your promise to me, i've given you so many chances please take advantage of this one cause i really love being with you and the thought of the things you do makes be sad and heartbroken. ok thanks this was a really personal entry so if you all think its gay just ignore it or write me a comment and i'll delete it. ok bye