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It was so good to see my friend. I didn't realize how starved I was for stimulating conversation and genuine friend time. (I miss Esmerelda a lot...) Anyway, we just spent the day talking and catching up until we got back to the point (haha) where "we just left off". This excites me: to realize she is one of those types of friends. We are considering the big move to the city. I remain ambigous about the city because we haven't chosen which one. Honestly, I am getting to the point where I just need to get the hell out of this house. It is nice to not have to pay bills etc, but my family is driving me insane and I find that the longer I stay in this house, the harder it is to stay focused and motivated. This house has some sort of hold on me, I can't get anything DONE here!
I heading up to Point on Tuesday and staying until at least Wednesday, maybe Thursday depending on if I am enjoying my time there. I am in a hate-love relationship with this visit. I worry that it will just feel WEIRD and I will feel that I don't below, which might be an okay thing. Anyway, the whole point of the trip is to move that freaking bed. Finally that fucking chore will be out of the way. Luckily, Stef will be there to play with so that I will not be lonely. I want to go to my favorite restaurants and Belts and do Pointy sort of things and visits. I sort of question whether I should meet up with someone, but I don't want to be pushy. I made a promise that I let them contact me first.. So, yeah. Either way, I am not sure I am ready to do the "seeing them in person" thing unless it is unplanned or he calls me. Why do things have to be so difficult?
Also, my new roommate (maybe) said something to me that stuck: I would rather have a few quality friends than several not so quality friends. Although, I have heard this phrase over and over again, this time it hit me differently. I have a couple of really great friends. I only wish they didn't all live so far away from me!
I heading up to Point on Tuesday and staying until at least Wednesday, maybe Thursday depending on if I am enjoying my time there. I am in a hate-love relationship with this visit. I worry that it will just feel WEIRD and I will feel that I don't below, which might be an okay thing. Anyway, the whole point of the trip is to move that freaking bed. Finally that fucking chore will be out of the way. Luckily, Stef will be there to play with so that I will not be lonely. I want to go to my favorite restaurants and Belts and do Pointy sort of things and visits. I sort of question whether I should meet up with someone, but I don't want to be pushy. I made a promise that I let them contact me first.. So, yeah. Either way, I am not sure I am ready to do the "seeing them in person" thing unless it is unplanned or he calls me. Why do things have to be so difficult?
Also, my new roommate (maybe) said something to me that stuck: I would rather have a few quality friends than several not so quality friends. Although, I have heard this phrase over and over again, this time it hit me differently. I have a couple of really great friends. I only wish they didn't all live so far away from me!