You will burn in hell

[thisismyfault]

I dont even know what to do.

Its like Im waiting for something better.
But it wont get better unless I make it.

Nothing is going to fucking happen.
Im just so bored.
And Im tired all the time.

But Im always doing something,
And I cant ever sleep.

Just so you know,
I've never stopped.
And I never lied.

Ill never stop doing what I do.
I have to.
It makes me feel like Im real.
Like Im alive.

And I know I sound depressed,
But Im just irritated,
And I dont want to bother anyone
To tell them all this bull shit.

I dont even want you anymore,
I just want to be that fucking happy again.
I just dont know how to make myself happy anymore.
I dont know what the fuck to do with my fucking life.

I cant explain it.
Its like Im under water.
Or trying to run in the sand,
It just doesnt happen.
Its just slower,
Like in a dream,
And you cant run.

"I wish I could get back there, someplace,
Back there."