as.the.tear.drops.roll.down.my.face.and.hit.the.key.board.i.think.to.myself
ive already updated twice tonight, but its a way to get my thoughts written down and get out some of my emotions,
so yeah im fighting with the world tonight it seems my mom, my sister, my best friend, and anyone else who seems to upset me. i think im being so selfish and i cant believe my behavior, im so worried about making them feel bad for hurting me, that i am sinking to their exact level, why should i bring them down, sinking alone is better than sinking and taking others down with you. im sick of hurting other people, when i myself am going through pain, im done with it, im just going to let everything go, and hopefully maybe someday people will do the same for me just cut me some slack - cuz tonight i feel like im dying inside
everyone close to me im pushing away, and i cant take it anymore, the anxiety of being myself is awful, im even begining to think what a horrible person im becoming - not quite everything i look upon as bad - but definetly a blurred mirror image.
so yeah im fighting with the world tonight it seems my mom, my sister, my best friend, and anyone else who seems to upset me. i think im being so selfish and i cant believe my behavior, im so worried about making them feel bad for hurting me, that i am sinking to their exact level, why should i bring them down, sinking alone is better than sinking and taking others down with you. im sick of hurting other people, when i myself am going through pain, im done with it, im just going to let everything go, and hopefully maybe someday people will do the same for me just cut me some slack - cuz tonight i feel like im dying inside
everyone close to me im pushing away, and i cant take it anymore, the anxiety of being myself is awful, im even begining to think what a horrible person im becoming - not quite everything i look upon as bad - but definetly a blurred mirror image.