Another day...

[thisisme888]

So far today I have had 280 cals. Not bad... It would have been less but I felt so sick this morning at work because I have a cold (?) i'm not sure but the drainage makes me throw up. this is the second morning in three days that I've thrown up. And being sick totally messes up my calorie intake because I HATE feeling like that and the only way

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[thisisme888]

Ok, this is a really long story cut short: so when I was 130lbs I was smoking (pot) all the time, and eating like every kind of bad food you can possibly think of. I was kind of depressed (?) and I didn't care what I looked like... plus my best friend was like really skinny so she could eat whatever she wanted and not gain anything. We were like "fuck it... who cares." Then I got a boyfriend who didn't smoke, so i stopped smoking and I stopped eating like that and got down to 125 without really thinking about it. I was 120 last year when I was at Washington University because I was constantly studying and I never had time to eat. (keep in mind that throughout all this my weight was fluctuating all over the place because I would go through phases were I would not eat and phases where I would.)Then last summer I went crazy with exercising and making sure I only ate 400-700 cals a day and I got down to 115... My doctor said I needed to gain weight so I did... and now after a semester of trying to lose it by not eating (and with the help of Adderall) I am down to 112. My "normal" weight is 120. Like for my height, that's the lowest weight I should be and still be "healthy". So it's been a roller coaster but that's my story cut down to the basics.