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i can not wait for this to be over. for high school to be over. yeah it'll be sad to leave some people or have some people leave you blah blah blah. high school is not that big of a deal and for the people who say it was the best years of thier lives, they have got to be kidding. thier lives must not be so great then.
i've had it. with everything. today my brother pushed my paitence too far and i was forced to push him against the wall and yell at him. (dont feel sorry for him. he's in 8th grade and actually a little taller than me.) he says he doesnt act the way he does in school but he only does at home. SO ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME HATE YOU? i DO NOT understand. we could have a much better relationship and i would actually enjoying hanging out with him if he wasnt such an asshole to me all the time. he knows the things i hate and does them every damn second i'm around. major sigh.
so tomorrow i have APUSH and spanish. spanish will be very hard, i'm guessing. 64's and 78's on grammar quizzes. yeahh... but in both of those classes i make 91's, 92's. and so if i make a B on either of them that's it and there goes my dream of having a 4.6666 (repeating) gpa for this semester. but am i studying? NO. i had mostly all day. seriously. what the hell is wrong with me? i know i need to and i should but i just sit on my ass and do nothing. sometimes i really hate myself.
i am yearing for the weekend (well thursday at 10 am) to come like no other. jess's family decided not to leave until the 24th. thank goodness. MUST YOU GO TO MEXICO EVERY SINGLE BREAK WE EVER HAVE!?!?!?! AND NO HOOKING UP WITH THOSE MEXICAN BOYS EITHER. THINK GIRL THINK. sometimes i just have to shake my head at you but you know i still like you. always. we are supposed to be doing something on saturday but then i remembered that i will be with MARK AND CASE (you are coming with me case. i'll pick you up). (well hopefully). so friday or something. but i dont know if i insanely want to to go the party. i do because mark will be there and i can never hang out with him enough, but then again... there's something weird. so there's this guy who i met a year ago. and that's it. only seen him that one time. but he got my sn from mark a couple days after i saw him cuz he liked me or whatever. and he still ims me to this day. and that's perfectly fine! except for the fact that he'll ask me out in various ways all the time. hey. i have not seen you in forever. i do not know you that well. no i will not be your girlfriend. i'm sorry. i have told you many times in very nice ways. i dont know how else to say it. and i dont know if i even want a boyfriend. there's only one person who (oh gosh i hate to admit this to myself or anyone else) i'm still sorta interested in but.. it's not up to me. i dont think anything will happen anymore. (though i wish it did) ahh.. i feel all vulnerable now. i dont usually like to write this sorta stuff. even though he's never online and wont read this. but at the same time i wish he knew. you know, just in case.
i can not wait for this to be over. for high school to be over. yeah it'll be sad to leave some people or have some people leave you blah blah blah. high school is not that big of a deal and for the people who say it was the best years of thier lives, they have got to be kidding. thier lives must not be so great then.
i've had it. with everything. today my brother pushed my paitence too far and i was forced to push him against the wall and yell at him. (dont feel sorry for him. he's in 8th grade and actually a little taller than me.) he says he doesnt act the way he does in school but he only does at home. SO ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME HATE YOU? i DO NOT understand. we could have a much better relationship and i would actually enjoying hanging out with him if he wasnt such an asshole to me all the time. he knows the things i hate and does them every damn second i'm around. major sigh.
so tomorrow i have APUSH and spanish. spanish will be very hard, i'm guessing. 64's and 78's on grammar quizzes. yeahh... but in both of those classes i make 91's, 92's. and so if i make a B on either of them that's it and there goes my dream of having a 4.6666 (repeating) gpa for this semester. but am i studying? NO. i had mostly all day. seriously. what the hell is wrong with me? i know i need to and i should but i just sit on my ass and do nothing. sometimes i really hate myself.
i am yearing for the weekend (well thursday at 10 am) to come like no other. jess's family decided not to leave until the 24th. thank goodness. MUST YOU GO TO MEXICO EVERY SINGLE BREAK WE EVER HAVE!?!?!?! AND NO HOOKING UP WITH THOSE MEXICAN BOYS EITHER. THINK GIRL THINK. sometimes i just have to shake my head at you but you know i still like you. always. we are supposed to be doing something on saturday but then i remembered that i will be with MARK AND CASE (you are coming with me case. i'll pick you up). (well hopefully). so friday or something. but i dont know if i insanely want to to go the party. i do because mark will be there and i can never hang out with him enough, but then again... there's something weird. so there's this guy who i met a year ago. and that's it. only seen him that one time. but he got my sn from mark a couple days after i saw him cuz he liked me or whatever. and he still ims me to this day. and that's perfectly fine! except for the fact that he'll ask me out in various ways all the time. hey. i have not seen you in forever. i do not know you that well. no i will not be your girlfriend. i'm sorry. i have told you many times in very nice ways. i dont know how else to say it. and i dont know if i even want a boyfriend. there's only one person who (oh gosh i hate to admit this to myself or anyone else) i'm still sorta interested in but.. it's not up to me. i dont think anything will happen anymore. (though i wish it did) ahh.. i feel all vulnerable now. i dont usually like to write this sorta stuff. even though he's never online and wont read this. but at the same time i wish he knew. you know, just in case.