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i dont know if i'm still grounded or not. they let me go (and drive there, woah) to the lamar bellaire game. it was crazy. seeing as it was their homecoming and they have like 5,000 people who go there. so of course. i saw many people. i was excited. chaia ended up going. yay. and corniche my best friend from the past was there. she looks great. and dione! and some boys. i saw someone and he looked hot as ever. seriously. he greatly appeals to me. man, he looked really good. i want him. but anyways. as it went on things started to make me sad and pissed off and all me and jon wanted to do was drink. i know thats horrible. but really. its been a while. me and jon couldnt think of anyone to help us out there. my sis is out of town. and i didnt want to bug a certain bunch of boys. i was depressed i wasnt getting any attention from someone and thats the only thing i wanted. yeah i know it was crazy there and i lost chaia twice and dione twice and others but still. i think about it and i desperately want to let go and just do others things, (no, not people you assholes) but inside i know i dont want to.
ok stop.
this is stupid. i am so annoyed. marilyn, stop being so damn emotional bitch. AHHH i'm yelling at myself. i'm a loser.
ok stop.
this is stupid. i am so annoyed. marilyn, stop being so damn emotional bitch. AHHH i'm yelling at myself. i'm a loser.