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my new year's resolution is to treat people better,
i know its not painfully original but i don't mean it in a cliche way,
i mean it in an "i have to get out of this mindset where the only thing that matters is that I am happy" sort of way.
I screwed over countless people in 2005 in so many ways,
but for some reason i thought i wasnt a bitch just because i never gossiped.
i wasn't just a bitch i was ignorant too.
i was horrible to so many people last year that i could not even count them on my fingers and toes,
or even on the fingers and toes of me and every single other person that has ever thought i will never be as mean as so-and-so,
but still is.
so if you're one of those people, just know i am sorry,
and pleaseplease do not even consider forgiving me,
because i want you to and you have ALL RIGHT to hate me for the rest of your lives.
i need to stop blaming all these falling outs on other people,
because the only common factor in all these failed friendships is
me.