Whiskers RIP
this is so painful!!.whiskers has barely been gone a day and already i'm going out of my mind with sadness. i can't imagine going on much longer like this. i've been crying for 4 days straggling and i don't feel like it's gonna get any easier. tonight is the first time i'm sleeping in my bed since we put him down and i'm still expecting him to scratch at my door in the middle of the night and jump into bed and be cuddle bunnies with me. it killed me to watch "heroes" without him tonight--i'd always call out his name and tell him the show was starting and he'd come running and sit on my lap on the couch during the show--it was too cute. i swear i can still hear him meowing. this is the hardest thing ever. i don't know what i'd do without alcohol and pills right now.