(screened to Dajve, Claire and Mitch)
he's still quiet but at least he gets up. least he's talking a bit.
spent last night in cause it were halloween and he never goes out on halloween. just watched some films and had a couple of beers then went to sleep. He's still funny though, it's weird. he flinches when i touch him, he don't mean to. it ain't his fault or mine or nothing I know that but it's just... argh its hard to write about and say and stuff but its like we're just mates again. only like not cause even then he was more affectionate than this. i know its all about like time and its good that hes making the effort to get up and stuff its just odd.
hes still got that bastards hand imprinted round his neck. i could kill him, i could, if you gave me a gun i wouldnt think twice. i aint ever hated like this before, when im not thinking of pete im thinking of him. i hate him so much.
before he left the other week connally gave me some money. i dunno what to do, whether I give it back or i take pete somewhere and try to get us better, like i took him camping when his dad did that thing to him, cause that got him better a bit, i mean nothing ever gets him better but it stops him obsessing and shit over it.
i dont really know what to do, i just have to wait and see.
hope youre ok guys.