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[onlygot1heart]

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...I'm cold.

And really rather lonely.

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[his_sarah_jane]

I am always here, Doctor.

[onlygot1heart]

Thank you, Sarah Jane, it's good to know you're to rely upon.

Truthfully, though, I didn't quite mean for you to see this. Didn't mean for anyone to see this, in fact. But there it is. Guess there's no taking it back now.

[his_sarah_jane]

At least you had the guts to admit it aloud.

[onlygot1heart]

Well. I suppose. Didn't mean for it be aloud, though. Does that still count?

[his_sarah_jane]

You wrote it.

It's more than I've been able to do.

[onlygot1heart]

I don't think we're going to be getting out of here anytime soon. And things around us seem to be steadily declining.

If you'd like a friend, I'm here as well. You shouldn't try to keep it all inside, Sarah, it'll only end up hurting more.

...Trust me, I know.

[his_sarah_jane]

Problem is that I still want more than a friend when it comes to you.

Bloody horrible, isn't it?

[onlygot1heart]

I...

Oh. Oh, I see.

[his_sarah_jane]

Not much I can do about that, I'm afraid.

[onlygot1heart]

I... I'm sorry, Sarah. I really am. But I'm afraid there's not much else I can say to that.

You're a good friend, and I care about you immensely. You know that, right?

[his_sarah_jane]

But apparently that cow means more.

[onlygot1heart]

How can I possibly answer that? Of course she doesn't mean more to me than you.

But she was all I had. I lost everything I had ever known when I was abandoned in that parallel world. My whole life, gone. Except for her.

Even you left me, Sarah Jane. Had your own life. A family.

Anyway, now she's left me, too. I suppose I really am left with nothing.

[his_sarah_jane]

Look at me. Or whatever the flipping equivalent is on these machines.

Do I look like I have my own life, Doctor? You had just left me and I wound up here and then I found out that you'd never be coming back to me if I went back. I tell that other version of yourself I love him and he runs off with her.

I'm just as alone here, Doctor. Just as abandoned. So don't go saying I left you when some other Sarah Jane did that instead.

[onlygot1heart]

...

Fair enough. Wasn't you that abandoned me, just as it wasn't me who left you.

The... second time, at least.

[his_sarah_jane]

Quite the pair, you and I. We've always been.

Would you want to go out on a proper date then?

[onlygot1heart]

Oh. Oh my Sarah Jane.

I can't. I mean, I really can't. Not just now. Not after everything that's happened. There's just too much that I need to sort through, and...

Well, I can't.