Not Feeling Much Better
It's been 5 weeks since the surgery and instead of feeling better, I feel like crap. Part of the reason is probably the massive decrease of opiods in my system, plus being more mobile, causing parts of my body I forgot I had to hurt.
I'm also slightly depressed, Gracie will be gone 4 years tomorrow, and the guilt I feel for putting her in a nursing home gets worse, not better. I know there was no choice, but that doesn't make it any easier.
I keep putting off plans for Dec's trip to Disney World - if I don't get us on a flight soon, we'll be walking to FLA. I say walk, because at the moment, my driver's license is expired, and I need to get a copy of my birth certificate to get a new one (which requires a ride to another city, and hello, I have no license!). Lucky for me, I have a devoted friend who will take me.
Meanwhile, the depression has caused me to fall behind on my bill paying - I have the cash, but no motivation to either write a check, visit a website, or make a phone call (but I can post here, go figure). I'm pathetic.
I'm also slightly depressed, Gracie will be gone 4 years tomorrow, and the guilt I feel for putting her in a nursing home gets worse, not better. I know there was no choice, but that doesn't make it any easier.
I keep putting off plans for Dec's trip to Disney World - if I don't get us on a flight soon, we'll be walking to FLA. I say walk, because at the moment, my driver's license is expired, and I need to get a copy of my birth certificate to get a new one (which requires a ride to another city, and hello, I have no license!). Lucky for me, I have a devoted friend who will take me.
Meanwhile, the depression has caused me to fall behind on my bill paying - I have the cash, but no motivation to either write a check, visit a website, or make a phone call (but I can post here, go figure). I'm pathetic.