I knew this would happen
yeah I am so good at setting myself up for what I already know will happen. I love how my entire senior year was screwed up by crappy ppl. hmm lemme see
broke up with boyfriend of 18 months.. for an ass hole who in turn screwed me over.
got failed for homecoming which I worked my ass off for.. I should have fought it but hmm.. who tlkd us out of that...?
did and got absolutely NOTHING for my 18th bday.
had to work everyday, even on all the holidays.. xmas, new years, valentines.. anything like that..
procrastinated so much that I had to pull almost 2 weeks of all nighters to get my hw done.
spent new years eve arguing with my ex, and being told how awful a person I am.
lost a couple good friends
dad said he didnt love me and Im the cause of all his problems.. yes this was him drunk, but he always was
got my life threatened.
got into a relationship that I wasnt ready for.
got all my christmas plans cancelled by advisor 1.
my BIG help got kicked out of the class bc of an immature action of someone else to hurt her, which in turn stressed me out like none other.
my aunt died.
lost one thing that Ive worked all year on.. the luau
this year has sucked.. and Im not asking for pity cause that is the last thing I want from anyone. esp cause there have been maybe 2 ppl who have even cared for me this entire year. I dunno, Im not ready for another relationship, cause I dont feel worth while of anyones attention so I need to do something about this. I miss friends.. I miss famliy, and I dont know if I've made the right decision.. and I think I might have screwed up my future. Im freakin retarded, and I need to get out of here.. I really do. cause there's the same person that I cant get off my mind, and ppl that jst continue to hurt me. Im sorry if I sound like the pessimist right now.. I know things are going to work out fine in the end.. but Im really upset right now, and confused. Like how the hell do I get upset that someone doesnt call me back? what the hell is that? maybe its cause ive been waiting since 8 for this person, and gave up my entire day for him. oh well, whatever, you know Im not right for this person any ways.. I think I need to jst let go. well It 12 and Ive wasted the last 12 hours of my day.. so Im going to cut my losses and go to bed. Graduation is in a week and a half. I cant wait. PeAcE.
broke up with boyfriend of 18 months.. for an ass hole who in turn screwed me over.
got failed for homecoming which I worked my ass off for.. I should have fought it but hmm.. who tlkd us out of that...?
did and got absolutely NOTHING for my 18th bday.
had to work everyday, even on all the holidays.. xmas, new years, valentines.. anything like that..
procrastinated so much that I had to pull almost 2 weeks of all nighters to get my hw done.
spent new years eve arguing with my ex, and being told how awful a person I am.
lost a couple good friends
dad said he didnt love me and Im the cause of all his problems.. yes this was him drunk, but he always was
got my life threatened.
got into a relationship that I wasnt ready for.
got all my christmas plans cancelled by advisor 1.
my BIG help got kicked out of the class bc of an immature action of someone else to hurt her, which in turn stressed me out like none other.
my aunt died.
lost one thing that Ive worked all year on.. the luau
this year has sucked.. and Im not asking for pity cause that is the last thing I want from anyone. esp cause there have been maybe 2 ppl who have even cared for me this entire year. I dunno, Im not ready for another relationship, cause I dont feel worth while of anyones attention so I need to do something about this. I miss friends.. I miss famliy, and I dont know if I've made the right decision.. and I think I might have screwed up my future. Im freakin retarded, and I need to get out of here.. I really do. cause there's the same person that I cant get off my mind, and ppl that jst continue to hurt me. Im sorry if I sound like the pessimist right now.. I know things are going to work out fine in the end.. but Im really upset right now, and confused. Like how the hell do I get upset that someone doesnt call me back? what the hell is that? maybe its cause ive been waiting since 8 for this person, and gave up my entire day for him. oh well, whatever, you know Im not right for this person any ways.. I think I need to jst let go. well It 12 and Ive wasted the last 12 hours of my day.. so Im going to cut my losses and go to bed. Graduation is in a week and a half. I cant wait. PeAcE.