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still patiently waiting for life to improve!
not that things aren't half bad right now. in fact, they're quite good, as they always are first semester.
but lord knows i have to be in a constant state of missing *something*.
i saw morrissey a couple days ago with kati.
i was about fourteen feet away from the man himself!
it was so intense. incredible energy there. especially during bigmouth and the more you ignore me...
kati and i serenaded each other to part of now my heart is full, and some other songs.
(i was so happy to hear that one live. but where was last night i dreamt?!)
morrissey is a beautiful beautiful man. prancing around in a black suit and sticking his fingers in his mouth and writhing on the floor and pushing his shirt down his pants before throwing it into the crowd (which caused a massive fight that i nearly died in).
damien dempsey said moz wanted to fight him.. then added something about joseph stalin in a ballroom.
amazing show, truly was.
david is in rehab in tennessee. three month minimum, but he always manages to get out of such things, and i think he is going to.
he's only been there for about a month so far. it's been horrible without him. i don't have a whole lot of other friends in my life.
kati keeps me decently happy, but i so rarely get to see her! at least i have her even at a distance.
david may be coming back soon, though. it is up to him, but i think it may be better for him if he stays in nashville till january.
regardless, i'd give a lot to have his companionship here again. i miss him incredibly, as do jess and kati who also want him back here.
could be a little messy if he returns, but i suppose i am willing to deal with that.
i'd have to be.
other than david, kristin and i are no longer friends at this point in our lives, and she is in savannah anyway.
not a whole lot to do about any of that.
i've lost a lot of energy over the months, a whole lot. i think right now i've actually done quite well in getting a little bit of it back, but that might be because i am afraid of the winter. and i will do anything to shut it out and ignore it.
i guess my fear of some things never goes away. i still have anxiety just by habit now.
i've gotten heavily into reading again, because i haven't really sat down and become engrossed in a book in many, many years.
so far i have fallen deeply in love with how soon is never? (for good smiths-related fiction), candy, trainspotting, and so on..
i am currently in the middle of trainspotting, which is really quite hard to get through. i've also started mapping the edge, to lighten the load on my brain a little.
also, in my newfound solitude, i've grown a deep attachment to new movies and music as well. haha, i am suddenly everything travis wanted me to be! and i didn't even mean for this to happen. but it's certainly not the worst point i could get to.
i've become quite fond of mulholland drive and other equally headache-inducing movies, after i spent hours afterward trying to even remotely figure it out.
trainspotting was good as well as nothing like the book. i can't even remember what the hell else i've watched. there's been so much.
and there is a boy i have met recently and i practically beg him to send me songs.
i usually really take to only about 2 out of 10, but those two that i do take to, are amazing. and that's the one thing i need right now.
amazing things.
and i'm finding them, i think.
that is all, really.
(edit: little did i know that when i wrote this entry, i would be deathly sick the next morning! ee hee heee)
not that things aren't half bad right now. in fact, they're quite good, as they always are first semester.
but lord knows i have to be in a constant state of missing *something*.
i saw morrissey a couple days ago with kati.
i was about fourteen feet away from the man himself!
it was so intense. incredible energy there. especially during bigmouth and the more you ignore me...
kati and i serenaded each other to part of now my heart is full, and some other songs.
(i was so happy to hear that one live. but where was last night i dreamt?!)
morrissey is a beautiful beautiful man. prancing around in a black suit and sticking his fingers in his mouth and writhing on the floor and pushing his shirt down his pants before throwing it into the crowd (which caused a massive fight that i nearly died in).
damien dempsey said moz wanted to fight him.. then added something about joseph stalin in a ballroom.
amazing show, truly was.
david is in rehab in tennessee. three month minimum, but he always manages to get out of such things, and i think he is going to.
he's only been there for about a month so far. it's been horrible without him. i don't have a whole lot of other friends in my life.
kati keeps me decently happy, but i so rarely get to see her! at least i have her even at a distance.
david may be coming back soon, though. it is up to him, but i think it may be better for him if he stays in nashville till january.
regardless, i'd give a lot to have his companionship here again. i miss him incredibly, as do jess and kati who also want him back here.
could be a little messy if he returns, but i suppose i am willing to deal with that.
i'd have to be.
other than david, kristin and i are no longer friends at this point in our lives, and she is in savannah anyway.
not a whole lot to do about any of that.
i've lost a lot of energy over the months, a whole lot. i think right now i've actually done quite well in getting a little bit of it back, but that might be because i am afraid of the winter. and i will do anything to shut it out and ignore it.
i guess my fear of some things never goes away. i still have anxiety just by habit now.
i've gotten heavily into reading again, because i haven't really sat down and become engrossed in a book in many, many years.
so far i have fallen deeply in love with how soon is never? (for good smiths-related fiction), candy, trainspotting, and so on..
i am currently in the middle of trainspotting, which is really quite hard to get through. i've also started mapping the edge, to lighten the load on my brain a little.
also, in my newfound solitude, i've grown a deep attachment to new movies and music as well. haha, i am suddenly everything travis wanted me to be! and i didn't even mean for this to happen. but it's certainly not the worst point i could get to.
i've become quite fond of mulholland drive and other equally headache-inducing movies, after i spent hours afterward trying to even remotely figure it out.
trainspotting was good as well as nothing like the book. i can't even remember what the hell else i've watched. there's been so much.
and there is a boy i have met recently and i practically beg him to send me songs.
i usually really take to only about 2 out of 10, but those two that i do take to, are amazing. and that's the one thing i need right now.
amazing things.
and i'm finding them, i think.
that is all, really.
(edit: little did i know that when i wrote this entry, i would be deathly sick the next morning! ee hee heee)