I'm having a hard time relaxing
I can't concentrate on anything but all the books that are in my garage. It's crazy. There's soooo many.
It's Sunday and i am supposed to be hanging out with the family. And yet..... it feels more like a duty, than something i actually want to do. How fucked up is that?
I know, i'm working too hard, and i'm letting it get in the way of my family time. and yet...... i feel happier when i'm working. Ugh. Horrible.
But i will be happy when the kids go back to school, and we can back to our normal schedules again. This on 3 days, off for 4 days is getting old. i miss the time away from people...
Brandon's hanging out with Eric H. today, doing their normal sunday football thing. The kids are watching a movie, and i know i should be watching with them. And i have a strong desire to go out in the garage and work, but i can't leave them alone. As it is, yesterday, i was working in the garage and Brandon was out there with them. He came out to ask me if i heard the doorbell ring. I said no, checked out front, and there was Kat, ringing the doorbell. I freaked out.
What the fuck was she doing outside? Brandon fell asleep and she went outside looking for me. I'm so glad he heard that doorbell, cause i didn't hear anything out in the garage. So No. Definitely i cannot leave them alone, and i shouldn't even want to. I'm the mom....
::sigh:: i gotta figure this out. I just gotta get through all these books and get them done, so that i can get them out of my garage. And on to the next project.... listing them all. Hahaha, what was i thinking getting all these books? At least now, i have tons and tons of product, and don't need to go buying for a whole nother week.
It's Sunday and i am supposed to be hanging out with the family. And yet..... it feels more like a duty, than something i actually want to do. How fucked up is that?
I know, i'm working too hard, and i'm letting it get in the way of my family time. and yet...... i feel happier when i'm working. Ugh. Horrible.
But i will be happy when the kids go back to school, and we can back to our normal schedules again. This on 3 days, off for 4 days is getting old. i miss the time away from people...
Brandon's hanging out with Eric H. today, doing their normal sunday football thing. The kids are watching a movie, and i know i should be watching with them. And i have a strong desire to go out in the garage and work, but i can't leave them alone. As it is, yesterday, i was working in the garage and Brandon was out there with them. He came out to ask me if i heard the doorbell ring. I said no, checked out front, and there was Kat, ringing the doorbell. I freaked out.
What the fuck was she doing outside? Brandon fell asleep and she went outside looking for me. I'm so glad he heard that doorbell, cause i didn't hear anything out in the garage. So No. Definitely i cannot leave them alone, and i shouldn't even want to. I'm the mom....
::sigh:: i gotta figure this out. I just gotta get through all these books and get them done, so that i can get them out of my garage. And on to the next project.... listing them all. Hahaha, what was i thinking getting all these books? At least now, i have tons and tons of product, and don't need to go buying for a whole nother week.