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summer is here.
its nice out, and its time for kids to play.
and where am i??
stuck inside the house, because im too afraid to even think about my best friend, and too afraid to think about the real world.
i havent hurt myself in weeks, but instead of feeling happy and proud, its making me feel worse. cutting was/is a huge part of me. now that im beginning to let that part go, i have no idea who i am. and that really scares me.
life is a bunch of shit. its impossible to win at. i wish i would let myself give up. but i wont.
its nice out, and its time for kids to play.
and where am i??
stuck inside the house, because im too afraid to even think about my best friend, and too afraid to think about the real world.
i havent hurt myself in weeks, but instead of feeling happy and proud, its making me feel worse. cutting was/is a huge part of me. now that im beginning to let that part go, i have no idea who i am. and that really scares me.
life is a bunch of shit. its impossible to win at. i wish i would let myself give up. but i wont.