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I thought maybe i should make an entry, cause eh...
I know i've been weird lately but i can't really help it. I just feel like that at the time and i wish i didn't. Right now i feel really...eugh. I feel like i wanna puke from it. And tomorrow i start my new classes, Chantelle named some people who will be in them and now i'm starting to think it was such a bad idea to swap classes...how nice for me.
I'm really scaring myself...lately i just haven't cared about anything and i can't even be bothered to go on neo anymore...i just come on to talk to people on msn & aim and thats it.
At night i can't sleep anymore...it's scary. When i'm asleep i feel really...o_o; Sometimes i just feel like i want to die, but that's no surprise anymore. It takes me ages to fall asleep and then someone or something will wake me up...so i'm just angry and annoyed and stuff all the time, and now my family are just annoying me so bad and i just wanna get up and leave but...then i wouldn't have my computer and omg. I swear, you guys are the only reason i'm living...i wouldn't be able to get through anything without any of you...So meh.
I'm starting to think that no-one really likes me anymore...my friends, or who i thought were my friends don't ever talk to me anymore...not even Jenna. And Chantelle...well i can't blame her, i'm probably the worst friend she's ever had...Why am i so stupid? Why can't i be like all of them and omg...;_;
My family is just...horrible. They make me cry all the time and it's just making me worse. I don't think that anyone who has come to my house in the last few days hasn't seen me when i'm not crying or screaming or whatever. Eh.
And my meds are wonderful. My life is great. [/sarcasm]
I know i've been weird lately but i can't really help it. I just feel like that at the time and i wish i didn't. Right now i feel really...eugh. I feel like i wanna puke from it. And tomorrow i start my new classes, Chantelle named some people who will be in them and now i'm starting to think it was such a bad idea to swap classes...how nice for me.
I'm really scaring myself...lately i just haven't cared about anything and i can't even be bothered to go on neo anymore...i just come on to talk to people on msn & aim and thats it.
At night i can't sleep anymore...it's scary. When i'm asleep i feel really...o_o; Sometimes i just feel like i want to die, but that's no surprise anymore. It takes me ages to fall asleep and then someone or something will wake me up...so i'm just angry and annoyed and stuff all the time, and now my family are just annoying me so bad and i just wanna get up and leave but...then i wouldn't have my computer and omg. I swear, you guys are the only reason i'm living...i wouldn't be able to get through anything without any of you...So meh.
I'm starting to think that no-one really likes me anymore...my friends, or who i thought were my friends don't ever talk to me anymore...not even Jenna. And Chantelle...well i can't blame her, i'm probably the worst friend she's ever had...Why am i so stupid? Why can't i be like all of them and omg...;_;
My family is just...horrible. They make me cry all the time and it's just making me worse. I don't think that anyone who has come to my house in the last few days hasn't seen me when i'm not crying or screaming or whatever. Eh.
And my meds are wonderful. My life is great. [/sarcasm]