EPIPHANY!!
Some people think drinking's stupid. They say it makes you stupid and and makes you say and do stupid things. But for me, drinking (not getting drunk la) lets me think. It kind of blocks out everything else, all the little details of the present, all the unpleasant things in my life (LIKE A LEVELS) and lets me think.
So my birthday was 2 (now 3, since it's 3 am) days ago. People say it's no big deal to turn 18, and that it's very anti-climatic. In my opinion though, turning 18 was fantastic. I mean, a birthday only comes once a year, and your 18th birthday only comes once in a lifetime, and I'm determined to think of mine as spectacular. And it was pretty spectacular. I got to spend it with my friends (Steffi Aruna Nicole Weishan <3) even though it was only because of our TSD showcase, and then I had dinner with my family and boyfriend. Well yeah it wasn't anything extraordinary. I mean, I didn't have a 1000 pax party at some noisy club where all the kids got drunk and danced with strangers, but I had fun and that's what's important.
And though I'm still the same person and I still do the same things (wake up, brush teeth, shower, dress for school etc) I do feel different. Every birthday is a reminder that I'm growing up, that I should start being responsible for myself, that I can't do anything I want and get away with it (like you know when we were kids, we could just stand on bus seats and sing at the top of our voices and people would just go "aww, how cute").
I guess turning 18 is just the beginning. So old but still so young you know?
But anyway, my 18th birthday led me to think about life and how you view it. Others can say "I turned 18. It was so much more boring than I expected." But for me, I choose to think it wasn't so uneventful and uninspiring. I chose to make it special, at least for myself. That's how it is with life too. Life isn't just what it is; a large part of it is what you make of it. That's why I think pessimism is dumb. No matter what you do, what anyone does, you can only do so much and change so much. But since life is so short and you only get to live it once, why not just make the best of it? It's not really deluding yourself per se, just looking on the bright side of things. You can be realistic but optimistic too.
And that's why I don't want to be an anal bitch to Narpal as well (even though he can be a bastard sometimes). Every time we fight, there are so many other possible scenarios running through my head, so many other options I could choose and so many other things I could've said and done. But no, I always choose to do what's most annoying, most difficult, most spiteful. Why? I don't know, but I'm 18 and I should know better than to be an unreasonable brat. That's why I'm going to try not to do that any more. It makes life easier and more pleasant for every one. If everyone thought like this, I'm sure the world would be so much more fun.
So yeah, that's my 18th birthday epiphany.
So my birthday was 2 (now 3, since it's 3 am) days ago. People say it's no big deal to turn 18, and that it's very anti-climatic. In my opinion though, turning 18 was fantastic. I mean, a birthday only comes once a year, and your 18th birthday only comes once in a lifetime, and I'm determined to think of mine as spectacular. And it was pretty spectacular. I got to spend it with my friends (Steffi Aruna Nicole Weishan <3) even though it was only because of our TSD showcase, and then I had dinner with my family and boyfriend. Well yeah it wasn't anything extraordinary. I mean, I didn't have a 1000 pax party at some noisy club where all the kids got drunk and danced with strangers, but I had fun and that's what's important.
And though I'm still the same person and I still do the same things (wake up, brush teeth, shower, dress for school etc) I do feel different. Every birthday is a reminder that I'm growing up, that I should start being responsible for myself, that I can't do anything I want and get away with it (like you know when we were kids, we could just stand on bus seats and sing at the top of our voices and people would just go "aww, how cute").
I guess turning 18 is just the beginning. So old but still so young you know?
But anyway, my 18th birthday led me to think about life and how you view it. Others can say "I turned 18. It was so much more boring than I expected." But for me, I choose to think it wasn't so uneventful and uninspiring. I chose to make it special, at least for myself. That's how it is with life too. Life isn't just what it is; a large part of it is what you make of it. That's why I think pessimism is dumb. No matter what you do, what anyone does, you can only do so much and change so much. But since life is so short and you only get to live it once, why not just make the best of it? It's not really deluding yourself per se, just looking on the bright side of things. You can be realistic but optimistic too.
And that's why I don't want to be an anal bitch to Narpal as well (even though he can be a bastard sometimes). Every time we fight, there are so many other possible scenarios running through my head, so many other options I could choose and so many other things I could've said and done. But no, I always choose to do what's most annoying, most difficult, most spiteful. Why? I don't know, but I'm 18 and I should know better than to be an unreasonable brat. That's why I'm going to try not to do that any more. It makes life easier and more pleasant for every one. If everyone thought like this, I'm sure the world would be so much more fun.
So yeah, that's my 18th birthday epiphany.