i don't know
Before, I had a lot of things that I wanted to bitch about. But now I'm done with the bitching, it's not getting anyone anywhere. I'm angry wtih a lot of people but it will subside. I usually am not angry for long anyway.
Now, I'm more hurt than anything. I'm hurt because a couple of assumptions and misunderstandings causes friendships to die. I'm hurt because one person's refusal to talk causes a lot of people to get hurt and confused. I'm hurt because I've been such a good friend and I get so easily dumped. In the time it takes someone to snap their fingers. I'm gone. That's it. Other people are gone, too. I'm hurt because I make an attempt to straighten things out with someone who also cares, we try to straighten things out and we get shoved away. I'm hurt because we get pushed off to the side. But mainly, I'm hurt because so many people just don't care.
I, along with Ashley, made an attempt and talked it out about how we should talk to you and what we should say, and we said that you could say things, too. But you just didn't care. We tried because we cared. She might care, I don't know...but, as for me? If you can dump me that quickly, I don't want to waste my time making things right. At least we tried. I obviously didn't mean much to you if I can get dumped so easily, and therefore I don't care anymore. You meant a lot to me. I'm sorry that I wasted my time being a good friend to you when I meant/mean nothing.
I know that I'm a good friend. You can say that I'm not all you want. Sure I gossip, but like you said, everyone does. I am not afraid to admit that I do and I have never said extremely nasty/hateful things about you. I cared a lot about you. I really did. And a lot of people have hurt you more than I did but you choose not to dump them. I do not understand. I'm questioning it now but I have to force myself not to because I mean nothing to you, so I shouldn't care.
Goodbye, I guess.