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[thiscrazzzylife]

its as if part of me has been cut out. my side aches from the loss of a rib. for so many years i have been searching for a friendship that is real. a friendship that constantly grows. a friendship that is unconditional. a friendship that feels like home. and my search ended when she walked through my door. i know what it's like to be loved by a peer. there was no age barrier. i learned more from her in these past (almost) 2 years then in any amount of time i've been living. or so it seems. without her friendship i don't know where i would be today. right now my heart aches. she's leaving, however, she will be back. and even though her presence won't be seen, it will be felt. the gift she has given me she doesn't even know. because with her not being here for me to fall on, i now have to learn how to fall on my own. it's now time for me to soul search like i have never before. because i know my worth, due in part to her helping hand. i feel secure enough to take steps that i wasn't before. she will give me strength from miles away. just knowing that she is going for her goals and reaching them gives me the hope i need. i don't put any expectations on her that are not attainable. i expect her to evolve with this new path she is going on. i expect her to really start to find herself. i expect her to be sad at times. i expect her to be lonely at times. i expect her to learn about life and where it may lead her. i expect her to have some of the best times of her life. these things i know will happen through her stay there, and for that i can't be selfish and want her to stay.i love her like a sister. and nothing will ever change that.

I love you Nycholl. and I am here at any time. when you need support, im here. when you just need the voice of someone from home, im here. when you need to vent, im here. when you need to just tell someone how great your class was, im here. for any reason or circumstance, im right here for you.
i know you know how much you mean to me, and i know how much i mean to you. thats why your my best friend........................