i cant feel my leg and my heart is aching

[thischickislost]

so i brokeded my finger and it hurts like a mother fucker. but i am getting over it and i have an excuse to flip off people all the time. that makes me super excited.

I guess I am feeling better than when i wrote the last entry. well, maybe not better. just differently. Liking people is messed up. no matter what you do, people will critisize you for who you like. and to me that is just wrong. you cant help who you like, and it has taken me 16 1/2 years to realize that. I dont know, maybe i am fucked up and bound to be single forever. that is the most likely answer. but, it doesn't help being thrown into a school where you dont know anyone your junior year. that just completely fucked me over. i am completely over that. but, i have to move past that. i cant get angry over something that i can not change.

work is exciting. i have worked everyday this week. i want a day off. just to sleep. i dont know. i am alright i guess. but all i am asking for is one day just to be lazy. meh, i will get over it.

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