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so last weekend was awesome. it was just chill and non-dramaful and things seemed to be looking up. i hung out with some people i haven't seen in a while, had my first time this summer in a pool and also at the beach, etc. but this weekend while i tried to make things good, i had this bad feeling creeping up from the back of my head, and i was right; it totally blew. i probably overreacted to something i shouldn't have, and i have learned that i need to figure out how to deal with my problems with my friends. i can't just keep letting them build up because by the time i finally let it out, i no longer want to deal with it, i just want to ignore it and make it go away. well, sorry ali, but things don't work that way.
so today, i am feeling the aftermath of this weekend, while trying to deal with it for myself and also mend the ties i have damaged. i really don't know how to do things for myself without feeling bad for not being there for other people. meh.