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i want to go crawl under a rock & die. megan might move, like, even if its to belmont, i'll still die. fucking, i cant walk down to the beach and cliffs by myself. I figured this summer would be better then the others cause of her but not if she doesnt live where she does now. and then i'd have to ride the bus alone....feeling completely awkward constantly. and we'll lose touch. i like, cant lose anohter best friend again. not yet. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. gah. she's my best friend, you know. i dont want to lose her like i lost shelby and kim, even if i am the one who fucked that up.
don't even bothering commenting, useless venting is all this entry is.