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alright so i dont know how long this is gonna be and it doesnt get a cut...so summer has been amazing! and i hate how poeple r like its almost over! no almost over is 4 days we have 29!! so in the past few weeks...i've gone out to dinner which was amazing cuz hes the coolest person ever!!! then went to the movies with brandt cory mary and brandon and sat in the parking lot for a half hour after. it was really fun to just sit and talk cuz i dont do that much with people anymore which is depressing. theres been many nights of just hanging out at someones house doing nothing but watching tv . we went to corys boat for the day. i've had one bad night tho...and it wasnt anybodys fault but my own!! oh and me and mary stayed up to 3 just asking eachother questions which was fun.
i've been thinking a lot about everything. and i really dont know what to do anymore. its like i cant just tell someone whats wrong and how bad i want it to work out. i dont know whats wrong with me. i just dont know what to do anymore! or how to handle it. its like everyone knows what the main thing is thats bothering me but that person! and i love how i never have to tell mary whats wrong she just knows and tells me whats wrong with me. but i still dont know what to do about! the one down point of my summer....frickin emotions!! and im sure the person knows! but we never talk about it, its my fault but how the hell r u suppose to bring something like that up?! well if u know what im talking about here (dont u hate when someone writes a paragraph like this but doesnt make it so u can figure it out?)and u have any ideas let me know!
but im gonna go cuz im already not in the greatest mood for a bunch of stuff thats goes through my head, maybe im just still messed up....