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I keep forgetting to update you on how i'm doing & i'm sorry for that.
To start this entry off on a good note, I am pretty content with who I am now. I'm tired of beating myself up over things that cannot be changed. We eat, shit, sleep, party, & die. Why beat myself up over how I look,feel,act,react,etc. ? If you don't like yourself, don't expect people to like you. Now i'm just working on trusting myself, which is going to be a toughie...
I like going to school now because, I know almost everyone who goes there because its such a tiny school. We get off-campus lunch & Mrs. Smith lets us do what we want(to a certain extent). I've made a handful friends here in North Carolina. They all seem to have some sort of brain too. I've met an amazing,wonderful boy, Frankie. Words can't describe how much I love him & it breaks my heart that I won't be able to see him for 2 to 4 years because he is getting locked up Nov. 15th.
I saw him last Sunday & i'm going to see him this sunday too. Hopefully I will get to see him longer this time though. I don't know what is going to happen when he gets locked up but even if I don't get to talk to him atleast once a day I feel like the world is coming to an end, so...
when I am finally happy, God comes up & rips my lungs out & just watches me choke to death on my own blood.
I just don't get it...
To start this entry off on a good note, I am pretty content with who I am now. I'm tired of beating myself up over things that cannot be changed. We eat, shit, sleep, party, & die. Why beat myself up over how I look,feel,act,react,etc. ? If you don't like yourself, don't expect people to like you. Now i'm just working on trusting myself, which is going to be a toughie...
I like going to school now because, I know almost everyone who goes there because its such a tiny school. We get off-campus lunch & Mrs. Smith lets us do what we want(to a certain extent). I've made a handful friends here in North Carolina. They all seem to have some sort of brain too. I've met an amazing,wonderful boy, Frankie. Words can't describe how much I love him & it breaks my heart that I won't be able to see him for 2 to 4 years because he is getting locked up Nov. 15th.
I saw him last Sunday & i'm going to see him this sunday too. Hopefully I will get to see him longer this time though. I don't know what is going to happen when he gets locked up but even if I don't get to talk to him atleast once a day I feel like the world is coming to an end, so...
when I am finally happy, God comes up & rips my lungs out & just watches me choke to death on my own blood.
I just don't get it...