I Am Still Alive
Sorry folks that i havn't updated my journal in a while, but i have been to distracted by everything but mostly a girl. It's funny how i told myself that i would never let a girl subside my ambitions or goals, but this girl has done that to me. She makes me forget the darkness and brings light into the darkned halls of my broken heart. This light that she shines..... is hope! I wrote 2 poems a while ago and nobody knew for who or anything, but these poems were wrote for her, and yet she didn't know. Well she knows now. But i still can't believe what i did. I met this girl in the 10th grade, she had just entered 9th grade, she was hot as hell to look at, but her personality was even better, and still is to this very day. But apparently she really did like me as much as i liked her, but ofcourse, you guys know me and know that i am actually a shy guy. Well apparently someone asked me if i would go out with her, i immediatly thought i was a joke so i said no. I mean think about, i was 5'6'' and 230 lbs. plus i had acne bad as all hell, but if only i knew then what i know now. She means everything to me, i gave up smoking for her, i stay clean shaved for her, and yet she knows about and uses it to her advantage. She uses the lines "I'll never talk to you again!" or "I'll never kiss you again!" and she has become my passionate weakness. But just to let you guys know about the poems, They go like this.
How Love Truely Feels
If you truley love someone
waiting is the greatest pain.
Something's missing inside you
It can drive you beyond insane.
It hurts when your around them
But you cant explain why.
And when you hold them in your arms
it makes you want to cry.
But when they're not around you
Your thoughts flee your head.
Your emotions cease to matter
And it fells like you are dead.
And so it rips you apart
It cuts against the grain.
Your torn between two feelings
And both of them are pain.
Dreams Can Come True
I try to say I love you
But sometimes I dont know how.
I want us to be together
But I fear it's to late now.
I sit back as you fall in love
With people just like me.
People that will never know you
People who will never see.
You tell me that you love them
You say they love you too.
And it makes me wonder
What I mean to you.
But will they ever know
How special you really are.
How your smile lights the room
How your Gods brightest star.
Then they break your heart
And your misery increases.
But I am always there
To help pick up all the pieces.
I wish that you could love me
The way that I love you.
Because if you did, I could say
That Dreams Can Come True.
This girl is inspiration, beauty, smart,small, and one of a kind. She once told me that she was waiting for the first deep relationship that she could find what love feels like, i told her that it(meaning me) was right in front of her eyes, but only when she was ready for it. I have officialy 29 days left before i go to basic training for the marine corpes, i am anxious but nervous at the same time. Well that is pretty much all that i have been doing lately, so till the next time
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How Love Truely Feels
If you truley love someone
waiting is the greatest pain.
Something's missing inside you
It can drive you beyond insane.
It hurts when your around them
But you cant explain why.
And when you hold them in your arms
it makes you want to cry.
But when they're not around you
Your thoughts flee your head.
Your emotions cease to matter
And it fells like you are dead.
And so it rips you apart
It cuts against the grain.
Your torn between two feelings
And both of them are pain.
Dreams Can Come True
I try to say I love you
But sometimes I dont know how.
I want us to be together
But I fear it's to late now.
I sit back as you fall in love
With people just like me.
People that will never know you
People who will never see.
You tell me that you love them
You say they love you too.
And it makes me wonder
What I mean to you.
But will they ever know
How special you really are.
How your smile lights the room
How your Gods brightest star.
Then they break your heart
And your misery increases.
But I am always there
To help pick up all the pieces.
I wish that you could love me
The way that I love you.
Because if you did, I could say
That Dreams Can Come True.
This girl is inspiration, beauty, smart,small, and one of a kind. She once told me that she was waiting for the first deep relationship that she could find what love feels like, i told her that it(meaning me) was right in front of her eyes, but only when she was ready for it. I have officialy 29 days left before i go to basic training for the marine corpes, i am anxious but nervous at the same time. Well that is pretty much all that i have been doing lately, so till the next time
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