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Hi kids. I got back from Pennsylvania. And saw The Wiz. The cast people did great. I wasnt very educated on the whole "Wizard of Oz" story, but it was still good. I've been at Nate's since then, and I'm leaving tomorrow.
I'm kind of lost...Im totally fucking stuck. Sure, it's completely my own fault, I know, but it seems like such a waste. A waste that wasn't necessary, and had no meaning at all. A waste that was really a mistake, that made me loose everything. She was everything to me. I hate not having her. I would spend the rest of my life telling her how sorry I was, and still, that wouldnt be enough. Yeah, I fucked up, and the only thing I can do is know that, and spend the rest of my life making it up to her. I cant do anything. Sometimes I think of her and I, together, and I'm so happy, but then I'm crushed knowing she's gone. It's like I'm living without oxygen. Or maybe I'm not living at all...
Sorry, I dont mean to complain. I just cant get over the fact she's gone, and I can't do anything about it. And I coudnt tell her how sorry I am in words, it's too much. Sorry, I'm finished.
Stake my heart darling, because I'm tired of living tonight.
I'm kind of lost...Im totally fucking stuck. Sure, it's completely my own fault, I know, but it seems like such a waste. A waste that wasn't necessary, and had no meaning at all. A waste that was really a mistake, that made me loose everything. She was everything to me. I hate not having her. I would spend the rest of my life telling her how sorry I was, and still, that wouldnt be enough. Yeah, I fucked up, and the only thing I can do is know that, and spend the rest of my life making it up to her. I cant do anything. Sometimes I think of her and I, together, and I'm so happy, but then I'm crushed knowing she's gone. It's like I'm living without oxygen. Or maybe I'm not living at all...
Sorry, I dont mean to complain. I just cant get over the fact she's gone, and I can't do anything about it. And I coudnt tell her how sorry I am in words, it's too much. Sorry, I'm finished.
Stake my heart darling, because I'm tired of living tonight.