in limbo

[this_totem]

the fact is that its eating me up inside
and no amount of sweet concessions and encouragements can help

its like theres no future to work towards anymore
and instead of free, i feel trapped
as if i'm aware of my own ignorance and i can't get away from it
i can't expand; i'm in a cage that i built
and there's no one else to blame but myself

and possibly that's what hurts the most.
i feel stuck to the ground yet shaky and ready to fall at any moment

and though each day gets a little better
its just the best anyone can do
while in limbo

EDIT: haggis on whey:
You Asked: Will I get into college?
Benny responds: Sometimes I eat so much toast, the top of my mouth gets sore. And then I eat one piece more. That's how good toast can be.

hahahaha, ah fuck it. amen.