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[this_pillbox]

don't ask why
i swallow the days
more slowly than
usual, completely
ignoring
the fact that they scratch and bruise on the way down.
"use ice instead" she says,
but i'd really prefer to take a shower, enjoying the touch on my skin
in remembrance of everything that happens in that bedroom, continually, though even in my mind.

this is what patience relaxing loss of control does, as