So, anyway...
A request has been put in for an actual update on my life instead of just more of the same rambling non-updates, and since I no longer have tennis class from 11:20-12:35, I think I can actually do something about this. First, however, I should learn to keep my sentences short. :-\
1. Classes: For the most part, everything is going well. I had a huge amount of drive for the first two months of the semester but not so much since then. I'm not sure where it went. My suspicion is that I burned myself out and also rediscovered the joys of having a life. In any case, my grades should turn out all right for the semester. I'm doing really well in my two history classes (read: nothing lower than an A-), expecting something like a B+ in French (though I could rock the final and perhaps push that up to an A-), and with a little work could probably bring my lit and Jew Class grades up to the A- range. Actually, I could probably push lit all the way up to the A range if I write an awesome paper and pwn the final the way that I did the midterm. We'll see. The main point is, I don't expect my grades to really drop at all.
2. Work: Lately the Office of Merit Awards has been all in a tizzy (Oh, "Birth of a Nation" - what a truly terrible movie) because the two Rhodes applicants got called back for interviews. This is obviously awesome, but bad for me because I end up with nothing to do. This in turn leads to me filling out surveys. Awesome, right? I love my job, though. It's good because every day I get a little dose of hardcore motivation in that I see all these incredible resumés and transcripts and I realize how hard I have to work in order be even close to their level. Plus it's not hard work and I get paid better than most FWS employees. I just wish they'd have stuff for me to do so that I could get my full hours. :-\
3. Boys: No real comment.
Every time I think about where I am now in relation to where I was a year ago, or even three months ago, I start to feel completely overwhelmed. It's just a little absurd, I know, but I think everyone knows the feeling that I'm talking about. At the same time, I have no real regrets. It would have been nice if things hadn't been so messy when Dan & I split, but I guess I just accept that everything ended up being the way it had to. Make sense? We were together for a long time, and you can't just cut someone out of your life. I just wish it weren't so obvious that I have it easier than he does. It makes me feel just the tiniest bit of guilt.
In a more general sense, I have Rob & Dan on the 3rd floor and Pat & Lennon on my floor (more or less). This of course makes me really want to keep living right here in the basement so that I can find out if there's going to be another pair next year. I love cyclical things like that. I'm not really sure why.
4. Girls: My current roommate is bi-polar and I want to live with Michelle again. Michelle's pretty insane, too, but at least she's normal about it and at least we're actually friends. Victoria and I would never be on the same wave length if it weren't for our being placed together for this year. Michelle and I found each-other immediately, as if by fate. No joke. And while it was good for us to live apart this semester (I can't see how things would have been good any other way), I am totally ready to get back to what I consider to be my normal living situation.
Also, I think I need more female friends. I spend too much time around guys and while this is excellent, I could use a little girlishness in my life. I think this is one of the big reasons that I'm so excited about going home for Thanksgiving. Kat and Caitlin and I will hopefully get together and just goof off. It'll be good.
5. Other Stuff: (1) Today I met with the AU Abroad advisor who is in charge of the program at Oxford University. It's a very difficult program to get in to, but if I could I would go with very little hesitation despite the fact that it's a year-long program, no exceptions. But I mean, c'mon! Oxford! (2) My room is in it's typical state of disarray. I've been keeping it very tidy this year relative to how it sometimes got last year, but occasionally I just let it go. It's nice to know that some things never reall will change. (3) I basically quit crew team for the rest of this semester. No matter what anyone says, I'm going to do it again in the spring, but this time around it was just too much to handle in addition to work, classes, and stuff. From the two months that I did do it, though, I got hella buff. Pretty sweet.
What ya'll should've gotten from all of this is that things are pretty much as normal as ever. I still do things impulsively and on whims, but I also like to stick with what I know and like. I overthink just about everything that happens, and if I get started writing I will still write a goddamn novel. I waste a lot of time but somehow do well, which in turn prompts me to waste even more time just to see how far I can push things. I'm generally happy, even when I'm being emo on LJ. Still, I feel like I'm in limbo, waiting for something to happen. I've felt like this for a while, and I can't imagine what's coming but there must be something out there.
Much love, Anna V.
1. Classes: For the most part, everything is going well. I had a huge amount of drive for the first two months of the semester but not so much since then. I'm not sure where it went. My suspicion is that I burned myself out and also rediscovered the joys of having a life. In any case, my grades should turn out all right for the semester. I'm doing really well in my two history classes (read: nothing lower than an A-), expecting something like a B+ in French (though I could rock the final and perhaps push that up to an A-), and with a little work could probably bring my lit and Jew Class grades up to the A- range. Actually, I could probably push lit all the way up to the A range if I write an awesome paper and pwn the final the way that I did the midterm. We'll see. The main point is, I don't expect my grades to really drop at all.
2. Work: Lately the Office of Merit Awards has been all in a tizzy (Oh, "Birth of a Nation" - what a truly terrible movie) because the two Rhodes applicants got called back for interviews. This is obviously awesome, but bad for me because I end up with nothing to do. This in turn leads to me filling out surveys. Awesome, right? I love my job, though. It's good because every day I get a little dose of hardcore motivation in that I see all these incredible resumés and transcripts and I realize how hard I have to work in order be even close to their level. Plus it's not hard work and I get paid better than most FWS employees. I just wish they'd have stuff for me to do so that I could get my full hours. :-\
3. Boys: No real comment.
Every time I think about where I am now in relation to where I was a year ago, or even three months ago, I start to feel completely overwhelmed. It's just a little absurd, I know, but I think everyone knows the feeling that I'm talking about. At the same time, I have no real regrets. It would have been nice if things hadn't been so messy when Dan & I split, but I guess I just accept that everything ended up being the way it had to. Make sense? We were together for a long time, and you can't just cut someone out of your life. I just wish it weren't so obvious that I have it easier than he does. It makes me feel just the tiniest bit of guilt.
In a more general sense, I have Rob & Dan on the 3rd floor and Pat & Lennon on my floor (more or less). This of course makes me really want to keep living right here in the basement so that I can find out if there's going to be another pair next year. I love cyclical things like that. I'm not really sure why.
4. Girls: My current roommate is bi-polar and I want to live with Michelle again. Michelle's pretty insane, too, but at least she's normal about it and at least we're actually friends. Victoria and I would never be on the same wave length if it weren't for our being placed together for this year. Michelle and I found each-other immediately, as if by fate. No joke. And while it was good for us to live apart this semester (I can't see how things would have been good any other way), I am totally ready to get back to what I consider to be my normal living situation.
Also, I think I need more female friends. I spend too much time around guys and while this is excellent, I could use a little girlishness in my life. I think this is one of the big reasons that I'm so excited about going home for Thanksgiving. Kat and Caitlin and I will hopefully get together and just goof off. It'll be good.
5. Other Stuff: (1) Today I met with the AU Abroad advisor who is in charge of the program at Oxford University. It's a very difficult program to get in to, but if I could I would go with very little hesitation despite the fact that it's a year-long program, no exceptions. But I mean, c'mon! Oxford! (2) My room is in it's typical state of disarray. I've been keeping it very tidy this year relative to how it sometimes got last year, but occasionally I just let it go. It's nice to know that some things never reall will change. (3) I basically quit crew team for the rest of this semester. No matter what anyone says, I'm going to do it again in the spring, but this time around it was just too much to handle in addition to work, classes, and stuff. From the two months that I did do it, though, I got hella buff. Pretty sweet.
What ya'll should've gotten from all of this is that things are pretty much as normal as ever. I still do things impulsively and on whims, but I also like to stick with what I know and like. I overthink just about everything that happens, and if I get started writing I will still write a goddamn novel. I waste a lot of time but somehow do well, which in turn prompts me to waste even more time just to see how far I can push things. I'm generally happy, even when I'm being emo on LJ. Still, I feel like I'm in limbo, waiting for something to happen. I've felt like this for a while, and I can't imagine what's coming but there must be something out there.
Much love, Anna V.