Another dumb entry
i have nothing to do...I'm so bored...so i figured i'd do another journal entry. Hmm...I wonder if we are winning the Basketball game against Mt. St. Joeseph? I hope we are, that way Brandon will be happy. Ok, ok, ok, thats what I'm really thinking about is Brandon. Sometimes I wonder if he thinks about me as much as i think about him? And I wonder how much he actually loves me? I know it can't be as much as i love him, bcs/ my love for him has become an infatuation. I really don't get it...Just somehow i fell in love with the boy. I have 2 say he is the best thing thats ever happened to me. I dont know what on earth i'd do without him, like i said before he is my everything. I've experienced this with him i could never experience with anyone else. And he's taught me lessons i could never learn any other way. He's the only person that could ever make me like this. I've already felt wrong be4 so this cant be wrong this isnt how wrong feels this all feels so right, I never knew 1 person could take you to such high points of ecstacy. He makes me unimaginably happy. I mean 2 me he is the image of perfect. It's better than the best fairytale i've ever heard. But i dont get it how could the same person who brings u Crazy feelings joy and gives you that Cant eat cant sleep reach for the moon over the stars world series kinda feeling be the same person who makes you cry. the same one who makes you feel as though you're nothing. But even when my heart is shattered in 100 billion pieces on the floor and my pillow is soaked with tears, when my eyes burn from the cryin, my heart hurts from the pain, my head hurts from the wondering, all i have to hear is for him to say he loves me and this sad lost little girl that feels like she's been to hell, turns into this overjoyous shining confident loving women. I dont know what it is about him but just hearing his voice and knowing it'll all be better makes it worth every tear. People always tell me i deserve better and i can get more...But Shh...I don't want to hear that, I love him and he loves me. I mean after all u must make it thru the hurt 2 truly experience the good stuff. And every second and every tear is worth it to know that he cares. Maybe some call me crazy but 2 me he's perfect. I wish we could just ecscape away 2 our own little world, we'd be soo happy i dont know its confusing this prolly just makes u think i'm crazy so u can scratch all that n know that I LOVE BRANDON!
OK so...off all that, I'm soo excited about Justines party 4 more days!!! YAY!!! And i'm also excited about the boys Varsity Basketball game against Kenwood it'll be sooo much fun. Uhh...i do not wanna go 2 skool tomorrow! Skool sucks we shouldnt have classes we should just go n socialize lol....I guess i should keep dreaming huh? I'm tryin 2 figure out a way 2 get Brandon 2 go 2 Justines Party but iono. We'll see. Ooo i got some interims today, i got a A in BAT, a C in science, an A in Span, and a B in geometry. I hope i got a B in Eng. and I need 2 bring my C up 2 a B. But whatever. I'm still mad tho bcs/ i still haven't talked 2 bran, he'l call eventually tho. I wanna go shopping i think i need 2 spoil myself -lol-. OK im gonna go now. XOXO buh byes
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OK so...off all that, I'm soo excited about Justines party 4 more days!!! YAY!!! And i'm also excited about the boys Varsity Basketball game against Kenwood it'll be sooo much fun. Uhh...i do not wanna go 2 skool tomorrow! Skool sucks we shouldnt have classes we should just go n socialize lol....I guess i should keep dreaming huh? I'm tryin 2 figure out a way 2 get Brandon 2 go 2 Justines Party but iono. We'll see. Ooo i got some interims today, i got a A in BAT, a C in science, an A in Span, and a B in geometry. I hope i got a B in Eng. and I need 2 bring my C up 2 a B. But whatever. I'm still mad tho bcs/ i still haven't talked 2 bran, he'l call eventually tho. I wanna go shopping i think i need 2 spoil myself -lol-. OK im gonna go now. XOXO buh byes
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