put the past away
Hey LJ. Sorry I've abandoned you for so long. I get sad when I think about how LJ's semi dying. I just never have time to update. Or I just don't feel like it. That might really be the reason. Sad, I know.
Life has been very busy! Good, but busy. I kept waiting for things to slow down, for me to be able to breathe. I've come to the conclusion that I need to just figure out how to adjust to me being busy because it's not going to slow down. At least not any time soon. It's better to be too busy than not busy enough. And maybe I'm not as busy as I think I am. I haven't had much to do the past couple of days.
I've been having SO MANY internal conflicts lately. I vocalize them a lot so really they're not internal conflicts. It's just stuff I have to figure out on my own. Everything's so complicated. But only because I make everything so complicated.
School's alright. I really don't feel like I'm learning anything. I do what I have to do to get by and do ok on the tests then I just disregard everything. I don't pay any attention until I have to. Am I just in the wrong classes or is this normal? Advisement is this week. I'm trying to figure out if I want to switch my major. I'm back to wanting to be a teacher again. Mrs. French helped with that one. I'm worried because I'm really bad at explaining things which is pretty much the basis of teaching but I think they teach you how to teach. I just don't want to keep taking business classes that won't count towards an education degree. But then I'd hate to switch to education then realize that's not really what I want to do therefore wasting more time, money, and credits. I just don't know what to do yet. New.
Lots of new boy happenings. In the past month, the number of dates I have been on has doubled. Granted I had only been on one date before this month, but still. It's exciting! Of course neither of them live in the same state as me...awesome. The first boy was a humorous 'what was I thinking' situation but it was still fun. The second boy might actually go somewhere. I'm actually pretty excited about it. I'm still being weird as normal but I'm trying. I really am. I'm trying not to freak out and just take things as they come.
So I'm starting to re-evaluate what I really want to get out of college. Since freshman year I've had this idea of getting the 'college experience'. Now that I kinda have it, I don't think I want it anymore. I really don't want to go out and party and get drunk with a bunch of people I don't know. I really don't want to be aquaintances with a lot of people who really don't know me or care to get to know me. I really just want a couple of good friends who I can relate to and who can relate to me. Just people I feel comfortable around and can really be myself. So that's kinda what I'm looking for now. That's what I want out of college.
The diet, well it's been better. I totally 'relapsed' while I was in Texas. It was fun while I was there, sort of. But after I got back, it was horrible. I was so disappointed in myself. After being extremely hard on myself, I realized I needed to give myself a break. I've done really well thus far so it's ok if I fall off the wagon. Just as long as I get back on. Which I did. I restarted my diet from the beginning. Phase 1 for 5 days and all the other phases for 3 days. I'm only in phase 2 now but it's been good so far. I feel a lot better about it already. It's really helped to get me back on track. And hopefully it'll help me start losing weight more consistently since I've been at a standstill for a while. I only have until Christmas to reach my final goal which is still near 20 pounds away.
Angela and I have been talking about getting an apartment next year! I'm very excited about it. I think it could really work and be really fun. We're going to do a trial run sometime. I'll stay with her for a week or so just to see how we live together. That way we'll kind of be able to tell if it'll work.
I've been drinking coffee like CRAZY lately. I really should start whitening my teeth. I probably shouldn't drink coffee to help with white teeth but I'm just not ready to give it up.
I'm a Gilmore Girls addict now. I like it. Speaking of which, I need to go be a real fan and pay more attention since a new episode is on RIGHT NOW!
I'll say that I'm going to try to update more but who really knows? See ya when I see ya LJ.
-Christy-
Life has been very busy! Good, but busy. I kept waiting for things to slow down, for me to be able to breathe. I've come to the conclusion that I need to just figure out how to adjust to me being busy because it's not going to slow down. At least not any time soon. It's better to be too busy than not busy enough. And maybe I'm not as busy as I think I am. I haven't had much to do the past couple of days.
I've been having SO MANY internal conflicts lately. I vocalize them a lot so really they're not internal conflicts. It's just stuff I have to figure out on my own. Everything's so complicated. But only because I make everything so complicated.
School's alright. I really don't feel like I'm learning anything. I do what I have to do to get by and do ok on the tests then I just disregard everything. I don't pay any attention until I have to. Am I just in the wrong classes or is this normal? Advisement is this week. I'm trying to figure out if I want to switch my major. I'm back to wanting to be a teacher again. Mrs. French helped with that one. I'm worried because I'm really bad at explaining things which is pretty much the basis of teaching but I think they teach you how to teach. I just don't want to keep taking business classes that won't count towards an education degree. But then I'd hate to switch to education then realize that's not really what I want to do therefore wasting more time, money, and credits. I just don't know what to do yet. New.
Lots of new boy happenings. In the past month, the number of dates I have been on has doubled. Granted I had only been on one date before this month, but still. It's exciting! Of course neither of them live in the same state as me...awesome. The first boy was a humorous 'what was I thinking' situation but it was still fun. The second boy might actually go somewhere. I'm actually pretty excited about it. I'm still being weird as normal but I'm trying. I really am. I'm trying not to freak out and just take things as they come.
So I'm starting to re-evaluate what I really want to get out of college. Since freshman year I've had this idea of getting the 'college experience'. Now that I kinda have it, I don't think I want it anymore. I really don't want to go out and party and get drunk with a bunch of people I don't know. I really don't want to be aquaintances with a lot of people who really don't know me or care to get to know me. I really just want a couple of good friends who I can relate to and who can relate to me. Just people I feel comfortable around and can really be myself. So that's kinda what I'm looking for now. That's what I want out of college.
The diet, well it's been better. I totally 'relapsed' while I was in Texas. It was fun while I was there, sort of. But after I got back, it was horrible. I was so disappointed in myself. After being extremely hard on myself, I realized I needed to give myself a break. I've done really well thus far so it's ok if I fall off the wagon. Just as long as I get back on. Which I did. I restarted my diet from the beginning. Phase 1 for 5 days and all the other phases for 3 days. I'm only in phase 2 now but it's been good so far. I feel a lot better about it already. It's really helped to get me back on track. And hopefully it'll help me start losing weight more consistently since I've been at a standstill for a while. I only have until Christmas to reach my final goal which is still near 20 pounds away.
Angela and I have been talking about getting an apartment next year! I'm very excited about it. I think it could really work and be really fun. We're going to do a trial run sometime. I'll stay with her for a week or so just to see how we live together. That way we'll kind of be able to tell if it'll work.
I've been drinking coffee like CRAZY lately. I really should start whitening my teeth. I probably shouldn't drink coffee to help with white teeth but I'm just not ready to give it up.
I'm a Gilmore Girls addict now. I like it. Speaking of which, I need to go be a real fan and pay more attention since a new episode is on RIGHT NOW!
I'll say that I'm going to try to update more but who really knows? See ya when I see ya LJ.
-Christy-