I Have Come To The Conclusion...
Recently I came to the conclusion that I'm afraid of failure. Terrified even. Whenever a task presented itself that required me to somehow prove myself I didn't give it my all. I guess it's an attempt at avoiding the critique that I would get if I had truly put forth a significant amount of effort. So, rather than try my best and not getting the positive critique that I feel I deserve, I don't try in order to avoid that feeling of failure.
...but then...
I had Warren Civic auditions. They completely boosted my self-confidence 600%. For some reason, I didn't get nervous unlike the previous two years I had auditioned. I actually tried my best for both the dance and singing auditions. The dance audition didn't end up with me getting a callback, but I didn't let that stop me from singing my butt off for the regular auditions. And yes, I got a callback. And yes, I was ecstatic. And no, I didn't make it past the second singing callback into the script-reading portion of auditions but that first callback really boosted my confidence so much. I feel like... I can do anything if I don't fear the results and just take critique and run with it. That time, putting forth my best effort payed off completely, and I feel that I've learned that your best is all anyone can ever ask of you and as long as you know that you truly tried your best at whatever it is you're doing then nothing that anyone says should affect how you feel about the work you just put forth to accomplish that task.
In other news
I'm running for Senior Class Vice President.
Vote for me (puh-lease!)
...but then...
I had Warren Civic auditions. They completely boosted my self-confidence 600%. For some reason, I didn't get nervous unlike the previous two years I had auditioned. I actually tried my best for both the dance and singing auditions. The dance audition didn't end up with me getting a callback, but I didn't let that stop me from singing my butt off for the regular auditions. And yes, I got a callback. And yes, I was ecstatic. And no, I didn't make it past the second singing callback into the script-reading portion of auditions but that first callback really boosted my confidence so much. I feel like... I can do anything if I don't fear the results and just take critique and run with it. That time, putting forth my best effort payed off completely, and I feel that I've learned that your best is all anyone can ever ask of you and as long as you know that you truly tried your best at whatever it is you're doing then nothing that anyone says should affect how you feel about the work you just put forth to accomplish that task.
In other news
I'm running for Senior Class Vice President.
Vote for me (puh-lease!)