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i dont really know how i feel right now. there are only a few people in my life that i care about and that i feel truly care about me. i really want to get out of this town, but then again, my heart is in this town. i wish i could leave and take the few that i love with me. but i can't. im told to have patience. but what for? patience meaning i just need to sit back and relax and wait for the day to come when i get to leave ALONE? no one to go with me? thats not a happy future. but then again, i've chosen that future. it's almost ironic. i want to be with the few poeple i love but im making plans to go to a place where i will be completely new and alone. BUT its all so that i can have the life i want. the job i want. with, hopefully, the people i love.
senior year, as i am finding out, is exactly the opposite of what you expect and what you want. but ONLY if you care. there are plenty of completely happy and oblivious seniors who just party there way thourh the year without a single care, but where are then gonna be in 5 years?
im taking the steps to have a happy life, but its kinda emotionally confusing right now. i sound like a girl.
im happy. people are beginning to accept that. maybe that will help.
senior year, as i am finding out, is exactly the opposite of what you expect and what you want. but ONLY if you care. there are plenty of completely happy and oblivious seniors who just party there way thourh the year without a single care, but where are then gonna be in 5 years?
im taking the steps to have a happy life, but its kinda emotionally confusing right now. i sound like a girl.
im happy. people are beginning to accept that. maybe that will help.