WHY??????

[this_is_me_xxx]

hey guys... hows your life going? mines good....things are just so PERFECT between me and my friends....I HATE THIS!!! Why do things always have to be so fucked up??? its like when im happy the world around my is crashing... it all started this past weekend...Brittany came out!! that was one of the highlights of my week i hadent seen her in a long time... but that night i found out that they were going to have a paerty for ashley and i wasnt invited..way to make me feel like shit guys...well on monday it was ashleys bithday and i made my mom take us to mcdonalds...i felt bad bc i didnt really get her anything for her birthday..but the next day they got on the bus and adrianne was with them...and there were plenty of empty seats in the back by me but they just looked at me and sat in the front... never even said high or anything... so i told nichole to get ashley for me so she did but ashley just turned back around..so i started to call her name...she didnt even look back.. and i know she herd me...i do all this nice stuff for her..so i was like ok what ever, when we got to school they ran off the bus waited for ashley to get off and ran inside so i was like fuck them im just going to go to my locker bc they obviously dont want to be by me...then nick came by my locker and we talked like we do all the time.. them gena walked by and didnt even say a thing...so i guess their still mad at me ..they are saying its bc i ditched them for nick, thats bullshit i didnt do crap to them its their fault bc they are the ones whos were not talking to me.. i MADE my mom go buy them mcdonalds ..we dont have the money for that kind of stuff right now.. but she did it bc she knows how much it would make ashley happy... and this is waht i get in return???????now i guess they got adrianne mad at me too.... ahh i hate this... gena and i just talked about the whole dithing thing on friday too........ahhhhhh..... why do things have to be like this..

well glad you happy
talk to you later

<3 jess xoxox