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I have been so ridiculously emotional for the past few weeks. Actually the past year, but all of a sudden in the last few weeks.
I know it's still because my grandma died.
I know it's probably because I'm freaking out about college stuff.
I know it's because I really don't want to be in AP Bio because I'm gunna have to work my ass off to get a B again and I really REALLY don't want to, in fact I'd rather just sleep and drop the class.
I know it's because I'm starting to think about what's gunna happen next year when I'm not in Livermore and the fact that some people I see every day, I may actually never see again.
I know it's because I'm scared that I'll loose touch with my friends who I love more than anything.
I know it's because I'm scared that Sterling and I may not actually be able to see each other as much as we think we will and we may actually not be able to stay together which is horrible
BUT I STILL CAN'T STOP CRYING
and then I think of all the amazing things I'm going to learn and all the people I'm going to meet and how I may make some friendships that I will have forever and how I may actually stay with Sterling for a very long time and stay in touch with all of my friends.
and then I calm down.....
for a few minutes at least
It's gunna be a long month..... so please tolerate me
<3
I know it's still because my grandma died.
I know it's probably because I'm freaking out about college stuff.
I know it's because I really don't want to be in AP Bio because I'm gunna have to work my ass off to get a B again and I really REALLY don't want to, in fact I'd rather just sleep and drop the class.
I know it's because I'm starting to think about what's gunna happen next year when I'm not in Livermore and the fact that some people I see every day, I may actually never see again.
I know it's because I'm scared that I'll loose touch with my friends who I love more than anything.
I know it's because I'm scared that Sterling and I may not actually be able to see each other as much as we think we will and we may actually not be able to stay together which is horrible
BUT I STILL CAN'T STOP CRYING
and then I think of all the amazing things I'm going to learn and all the people I'm going to meet and how I may make some friendships that I will have forever and how I may actually stay with Sterling for a very long time and stay in touch with all of my friends.
and then I calm down.....
for a few minutes at least
It's gunna be a long month..... so please tolerate me
<3