Is this the way a toy feels, when it's batteries run dry?
Well being sick for 3 whole school days truely sucks big time! I was so sick, I can't even explain it. I hurt all over, and couldn't eat or sleep for like 2 days. I missed sooo much school work, and it's hard to catch up. I feel overwhelmed and left behind in my classes.
On top of that, it kinda just opened my eyes to how many friends I actually have. I mean I guess I knew I only had a few, but this just let me realize how few it really is. I only heard from Akira who brought me some of my homework, then Shauna called me on the 3rd day I was gone, and then I got a text from Nick, but I think he only did it because he saw Shauna call me... I mean yeah people are busy, and have other things to deal with, but if one of my close friends was gone for 3 days, I would be worried, or wondering where they were. Hell, I'd probably call them the first day they weren't there. But that's just me. Thank you to the friends, all 3 of them, who actually did care and bothered to find out if I was even alive.
I guess in life, if you actually have 3 friends you consider "close" then you are well off, but why does it feel so empty? I also feel so weird and emotional. Like almost anything can and will make me cry. I can't explain it. And I was soooo pissed off by a certain someone who I can no longer stand. As far as I am concerned, this person and I are through with anything we had. I'm so done trying to fix things when all they want to do is make me cry and bring up the hardest times in my life. Fuck them, I don't need people like that in my life. So maybe with that bad aspect gone, things might start going a little better.
I just can't wait for school to be over. Nothing to stress about. No homework. Nothing but sleeping in and hanging out. Well except for work, but w/e. That part is necessary. $$$=fun times!! =)
Well I am suddenly in a much better mood. luv ya all! {smootches}