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i moved. :)
i thought it would be a lot more uncomfortable than it is. i almost immediately feel at home, and very comfortable in my new place. it's amazing being so close to my boyfriend, and having my best friend by my side.
seriously, i've never been so happy and so okay with where i am in my life. i don't think i could ask for anything more. i've got my family behind me, i've got everyone i need with me, and i'm ready to build new relationships and paths for myself to become who i want to be.
i feel like moving was like.. me leaving my childhood behind and accepting the undeniable responsibility at hand. i feel like after i graduated i tried to hang on to how lucky i was- i never did chores, i never did anything at home. now that i've moved i actually enjoy cleaning. i'm suddenly a pro dish-washer, and i so took out the trash.
anyway- about the boyfriend. it's time to gush, because that's what i do in here, right? well... i'm going to start with the admission that i really really have fucked up on past judgment of boys in my life. i looked for someone fun, and pretended like they were everything i wanted them to be. i pretended they were responsible and caring, and i pretended that they were going to help me become a better person. but honestly, with billy, i feel like he's everything i need/want him to be. he's logical, and so real. he is an amazing person, but he's not afraid to admit to his faults and what he needs to work on. he's brutally honest, but i admire that, especially after being lied to as much as i have been in the past. i can honestly, 100%, fully, and confidently say that i am the happiest i have ever been with him. :)
i love my life.
i thought it would be a lot more uncomfortable than it is. i almost immediately feel at home, and very comfortable in my new place. it's amazing being so close to my boyfriend, and having my best friend by my side.
seriously, i've never been so happy and so okay with where i am in my life. i don't think i could ask for anything more. i've got my family behind me, i've got everyone i need with me, and i'm ready to build new relationships and paths for myself to become who i want to be.
i feel like moving was like.. me leaving my childhood behind and accepting the undeniable responsibility at hand. i feel like after i graduated i tried to hang on to how lucky i was- i never did chores, i never did anything at home. now that i've moved i actually enjoy cleaning. i'm suddenly a pro dish-washer, and i so took out the trash.
anyway- about the boyfriend. it's time to gush, because that's what i do in here, right? well... i'm going to start with the admission that i really really have fucked up on past judgment of boys in my life. i looked for someone fun, and pretended like they were everything i wanted them to be. i pretended they were responsible and caring, and i pretended that they were going to help me become a better person. but honestly, with billy, i feel like he's everything i need/want him to be. he's logical, and so real. he is an amazing person, but he's not afraid to admit to his faults and what he needs to work on. he's brutally honest, but i admire that, especially after being lied to as much as i have been in the past. i can honestly, 100%, fully, and confidently say that i am the happiest i have ever been with him. :)
i love my life.