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[this_is_a_hymn]

so it's really weird how i feel like everything i've done in the past month is unraveling and falling down on top of me.
i feel like we took 5 steps forward, but i keep getting pushed backwards.

i know i'm probably freaking out about nothing, but who says that?!
how does that happen?
how do you ask something like that then take it back, and mean it?
what happened between those two events that made your decision?
i don't like the way this feels.