Okay, I'm back... After years of silence.
I don’t hate myself, but I admit that I’m not happy. I don’t like the excess weight, neither how it looks nor how it feels.
I’m not going on a diet; I’m going on a lifestyle change.
I wish I could accurately describe how it is that I feel right now. Let’s break this post into two sections, how I feel and what my goals are.
How I feel is a general sense of unhappiness. Before I go into details, I want to make it clear that I’m not feeling a general sense of unhappiness in a sense of being depressed. I’m feeling a general sense of unhappiness in the sense that you will sometimes feel ‘brighter’ when the sun comes out after weeks of rain. You weren’t depressed or sad during the weeks of rains, but the end of that period has made you happier. It is an unhappiness that is more of an absence of happiness, then an actual feeling of depression.
While I want to lose weight by my birthday, I’m more interested in losing 40lbs by the time of the Bubble Run.
It is time I take control of my life. It is time I be a more active participant in the course of my life. I need and want more than what it is that I have and now its time for me to fight for that. I feel like I say this over and over again, but this time it has to be the case. It’s time to start doing things differently. I’m going to stick to my commitment of eating healthy and natural foods, staying away from chemical, processed foods as well as eating meat. I really don’t like meat all that much unless its something from a restaurant.
Small things I plan on changing:
Everyday I’m going to blog, even if it is just a tiny thing.
Everyday I’m going to workout; cardio for at least 45 minutes and lifting weights for at least 30 minutes four times a week.
I’m not going on a diet; I’m going on a lifestyle change.
I wish I could accurately describe how it is that I feel right now. Let’s break this post into two sections, how I feel and what my goals are.
How I feel is a general sense of unhappiness. Before I go into details, I want to make it clear that I’m not feeling a general sense of unhappiness in a sense of being depressed. I’m feeling a general sense of unhappiness in the sense that you will sometimes feel ‘brighter’ when the sun comes out after weeks of rain. You weren’t depressed or sad during the weeks of rains, but the end of that period has made you happier. It is an unhappiness that is more of an absence of happiness, then an actual feeling of depression.
While I want to lose weight by my birthday, I’m more interested in losing 40lbs by the time of the Bubble Run.
It is time I take control of my life. It is time I be a more active participant in the course of my life. I need and want more than what it is that I have and now its time for me to fight for that. I feel like I say this over and over again, but this time it has to be the case. It’s time to start doing things differently. I’m going to stick to my commitment of eating healthy and natural foods, staying away from chemical, processed foods as well as eating meat. I really don’t like meat all that much unless its something from a restaurant.
Small things I plan on changing:
Everyday I’m going to blog, even if it is just a tiny thing.
Everyday I’m going to workout; cardio for at least 45 minutes and lifting weights for at least 30 minutes four times a week.