a solitary life.

[this_heart]

I have been thinking a lot about my life. Mainly that I am getting more comfortable with the idea of living it alone. There are so many places I want to see. It seems my plans suit no one but me. Which makes sense, but I think everyone likes having that security blanket-of not having to do things alone.

I am a lot less scared of traveling alone. This June will be my first time traveling alone. San Diego here I come. I am hoping it will give me the freedom to be able to travel alone a lot more often, without being scared or lonely or bored.

I have been spending a lot of time alone lately. Oddly enough I have been very much looking forward to this time. Sometimes it worries me that maybe I am isolating myself...but at the same time I feel like I am getting more comfortable with myself, with who I am and who I do not want to be.

I feel like I am not putting walls up anymore. I am not stopping myself from thinking about things I always thought were out of reach. I am not afraid to say them out loud. And I guess by saying them out loud, makes them even more tangible.

I want to be a hair stylist. I want to buy my own condo. I want to go to Prague, Germany, England.

I want to do all these things and much more.