*when it rains it pours*
Rhad was arrested last night, for buying. His mom called me to see if I had heard from him, and by this afternoon I figured he had to have been arrested or something equally as bad. I called central booking and precints and a bazillion numbers, and finally found out what had happened. His mom was so upset, I felt awful.
On the train ride home I thought to myself, I can't do this anymore. I thought maybe we could be friends, but as long as he is in my life, I will always get sucked into this. Always worry that he may be lying somewhere dead, or in handcuffs. It's so unfair, I didn't want to get back together, but I thought somehow we could be in each other's lives. But we can't. I have to give up on that idea....give up on him, because its never going to end.
And it hurts, to think that I have to let him go, and he may never find his way. He may spend the rest of his life like this, and that just breaks my heart.
I ended up staying in, cause I really wasn't in the mood to socialize. So my graduation celebration will have to wait until tomorrow.
On the train ride home I thought to myself, I can't do this anymore. I thought maybe we could be friends, but as long as he is in my life, I will always get sucked into this. Always worry that he may be lying somewhere dead, or in handcuffs. It's so unfair, I didn't want to get back together, but I thought somehow we could be in each other's lives. But we can't. I have to give up on that idea....give up on him, because its never going to end.
And it hurts, to think that I have to let him go, and he may never find his way. He may spend the rest of his life like this, and that just breaks my heart.
I ended up staying in, cause I really wasn't in the mood to socialize. So my graduation celebration will have to wait until tomorrow.