i just don't get it

[this_dying_wish]

i don't understand how people can be so fake towards each other. i dont get how you can say such horrible things about someone, criticizing their actions, criticizing their looks, criticizing their choices, down to the clothes they wear or the tattoos they have, and yet STILL manage to call them your "best friend." to me, that is not what the label "best friends" stand for, and if that really is what it means to you, then i'd rather be lonely. i just wonder if your so called "best friend" has ANY idea of the nasty, down right bitchy things youve said about them behind their back. i know they would not be so quick to call you their "bff" if they knew what you REALLY thought of them. "shes so ugly shes a whore" etc etc i can go on and on and on with the "shit" you've said about your "best friend" behind your back. its just so amusing, yet honestly APPALLING. i wonder all the lovely things you said about me, your once so called "best friend" to your other "best friends." are you just one big giant fake bitch? do you have any respect for people? or do you just gossip and talk shit for something to keep you busy? im sorry, i am not a fake person, and i refuse to say any mean things about anyone behind their back without their knowledge. if i am opinionated enough to think for myself and make my own judgments, i sure as hell will own up to them enough to tell you bluntly how i feel. i have no reason to hide what i think or feel about someone, because obviously i have my reasons and my support to back up what i think, feel, and say. i just hate liars and fake, 2 faced people, and that is exactly what you are. or are you just that desperate for friends that you are friends with people you claim to not even like? does your "best friend" have any idea how many times you've said to me "i dont even know why im her friend anymore" or "i dont want to be friends with her anymore?" because i have run out of fingers and toes to count on. does she know you laugh about how "hideous" she is and call her a "simpsons" character behind her back? does she know that you claim shes a front runner and claims to like sports teams to sound cool? oh does she have any idea the things youve said about her beloved family? i know i wouldnt like my "best friend" to think those things about me, have the audacity to tell someone else those opinions, and yet never tell me to my face your opinions. yes, i have agreed with you and said the same things as you. but let me point this out to you--i dont speak to this person anymore, i am not friends with this person anymore, and i sure as hell am not hanging out with her, taking pictures with her, and labeling her as my "best friend" like you are. what ever happened to honesty? id rather have my "best friend" tell me i got fat and ugly to my face then to tell everyone else other than me. id still be your best friend if you told me i looked like a simpsons character, but i would not be your friend if you told everyone besides me that i look like a simpsons character, am ugly, and am a whore. thats all im saying. you are going to be very lonely one day because you are so shallow. there is more to life than being sickly thin, bleaching your hair so blonde that it looks like straw, and collecting as many betsey johnson necklaces and purses they make, and wearing so much makeup that no one knows what you really look like under pounds of mascara and concealer. its the traits like intelligence, honesty, and integrity that take you places in life, because when you get older, your personality is the only thing left that doesnt fade. you wont be young and beautiful forever. your bleached blonde hair will one day turn gray, and there wont be enough concealer in the world to conceal all the wrinkles that you will accumulate over time. no one will ever learn to love you for who you are because you are so incredibly fake. how can someone learn to love you if they never get past the shallowness to know the real you? is there even a REAL you, or is everything about you just that fake, from your eye and hair color to your personality? when your looks are gone, and when your career is long and over, the only thing left are the people and the company that surround you, your "friends" and family. so why would you keep around people that you claim not to like? its either youre the fakest bitch on the planet, or you are a HUGE liar. youll do or say anything to try to get people to like you, its down right pathetic. why dont you find people and create lasting relationships with people who GENUINELY care? i genuinely cared, until i saw just how much of a lying, deceiving, 2 faced person you really are. i guess you are a lot more immature than i thought, and you have a lot of growing up to do before anyone, whether it be a boyfriend, a college professor, a colleague, or a friend will actually be able to take you seriously. you would learn a huge lesson by wearing a blindfold and pretending to be blind for a day. (might take a lot longer than a day however for you to actually learn anything). you would actually get to learn something about people and personalities, and not focus on discriminating against every fat and ugly person you see with "nooooo sense of style." just grow the fuck up. i wish someone who isnt as fake as you would tell you to your face that you are ugly and too thin and stupid and immature and just a down right bitch. it won't be long until your fakeness comes to light. then what are you going to do?

ok that is all. im not trying to upset anyone or cause any problems. i just wish people would take things a little more seriously and get their priorities straight.