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my computer ate itself yesterday so I don't know when I'll be online...until I am you can IM my phone: AllDucksShldSurf who woulda thunk I'd have a screen name incorporating ducks and surfing. anyway, I don't know what's going on. I wanted to be done thinking and just live and have fun and be 16 but then my sister and her boyfriend/fiance/whatever came in my room and started making out and telling eachother how much they love eachother and joking around and laughing and having fun and I started thinking. gross. the way I see me and Ryan is that neither one of us is really happy, we're both actually falling apart. we're not really talking to eachother (he's not talking to me...he always has to do homework. right.), and we can never really have back what we had. well, fuck.
"So this is a painful realization that all has gone wrong and nobody cares at all"
I told him I'd wait for him but what if I'm waiting for nothing? not that I'm actually sticking to that anyway because I'm a horrible person. everything is so wrong that I wouldn't recognize right if it was staring me in the face...which it very well may be. mmm so now that I have that off my chest I'm going to go do my german homework so I don't completely fail even though it's sort of pointless because I didn't do the project that's worth half my grade. terrific.
exit stage left.
"So this is a painful realization that all has gone wrong and nobody cares at all"
I told him I'd wait for him but what if I'm waiting for nothing? not that I'm actually sticking to that anyway because I'm a horrible person. everything is so wrong that I wouldn't recognize right if it was staring me in the face...which it very well may be. mmm so now that I have that off my chest I'm going to go do my german homework so I don't completely fail even though it's sort of pointless because I didn't do the project that's worth half my grade. terrific.
exit stage left.