hmmm..
I really wish i didn't feel so utterly alone all the time. mabey if Dad was still here it'd be different.. well, probably not. I just don't feel conected to anyone right now, and i don't like it. I want to be needed, I want to be told secrets, I want someone to care if i'm feeling down. I have nothing to tell, but i still wan't to be listened to. I have a best friend, but she could live without me. she has someone else, i know she's not alienateing me for him, if she likes him better than me it's not her fault. but i have no one. that big talk i had with her, i realize now that it's not going to change anything. this way i know she knows what she's doing to me but she is not going to care. I want someone to care.