Jun 30, 2006 13:48
i've been working for dialamerica for about a month now and i'm afraid for my faith in humanity. for a while i've painting about people under the pretense that i'd like to get at something basic about what humaness means, even though trips to the mall and even walks outside remind me regularly that i have no idea. and maybe i'll never know what it means.
i'm ok with that.
what scares me is that humaness is ugly, that it might be actually a container for filth and cruelty.
i've heard people talk in worried tones about elitism and closing oneself off in the ivory tower.
i don't think they know what they're talking about. the world they're worried about doesn't give a crap about them.
i'm crawling back in as soon as i can and staying the hell in there.